I don't fucking know what to do

Nothing I try works

And every time I try to study it just reminds me of the fact that I have done nothing which makes me anxious

So I try to distract myself by doing something else

And it goes on and on until I end up with nothing done

I need to pass two exams and I can't even fucking bring myself to do that

I don't know how to fucking talk to people any longer

I lost my notes for physics and I need to ask someone for at least the questions

actually no I didn't lose them I didn't even take any for the entire semester

But I'm too fucking anxious to do anything any more

I don't know what to do and doing anything remotely productive makes me want to die

Doing nothing at all also does the same thing

I can't spend my life procrastinating

Especially now that I'm risking losing everything

Quite obviously if we're short on money my PC is going to be the first thing to go, because according to her "I don't need it"

haha okay

I need to get help to get out of this shitty cycle but I can't even bring myself close to making a phone call

Maybe I can actually find myself a good job that doesn't require any education

I've heard you can get some that do require it even without any diploma just based on your skills alone, but I doubt it

My portfolio isn't huge and it's honestly rather horribly written and obviously I am not going to have the time to rewrite everything