Honestly I am not doing that

I'm just sitting here doing nothing

Or rather have been all this time

3 months wasted completely

Oh wait I mean 2 months, forgot how to count

Yeah basically

I've done literally zero this semester

I feel like that could change somehow if I actually seek out the profs that I need but their timetables are still not available and I can't bring myself to ask someone

So I keep trying to do ones that I do have timetables for but

It's barely working

And honestly right now the sole thought of walking up to a professor and talking to them throws me into tears because recently I had 1 (one) (!) encounter where she was slightly rude to me

Fuck

haHAA

another nightmare

we're back to square one guys

back to self-loathing and regretting past actions

including whining for a fucking hour