Quite obviously if we're short on money my PC is going to be the first thing to go, because according to her "I don't need it"

haha okay

I need to get help to get out of this shitty cycle but I can't even bring myself close to making a phone call

Maybe I can actually find myself a good job that doesn't require any education

I've heard you can get some that do require it even without any diploma just based on your skills alone, but I doubt it

My portfolio isn't huge and it's honestly rather horribly written and obviously I am not going to have the time to rewrite everything

oh nice my mom also enabled parental controls on the internet from the ISP's side so I can't even work or talk to my friends when I can't sleep

That shit just drops all the packets, no way around it

And oh boy I'm not going to be able to sleep

I don't know why, but I want to see myself bleed. I know it does nothing and just makes a huge mess but I still get the urge and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

Oh well, time to get rid of all sharp objects in the room.

So my cat just bit me really fucking hard

So I guess I got what I wanted

Yep, this is still useless.

I don't want a better life even if it comes without any effort by some miracle.

I know I'm just going to hate my life regardless

Oh hey tinnitus it's been a while

Jesus fucking christ it's so loud. It almost hurts my ears

Mfw trying to press against sofa cushions because it reminds me of human contact at least slightly

Got at least some sleep but I still feel like ass