Basically, I wanted to say that your thoughts and desires are real. If you really want something, you will finally get it.
If you’re willing to do anything, if you’re willing to go through hell, through any shit, then it’s a real dream. If you think that you are lazy, or you are so busy that you don’t have time to do that, or if you feel you’re too afraid to do that, and so on.. it’s not because you’re lazy, it’s because that’s not a real dream. It’s just a wish. That’s it. Everyone is lazy. Everyone has fears. Everyone is busy. But that’s actually when it shows is it a real dream or not?! When your desire of achieving your dream is stronger than your laziness, fears, and you can always find some time in your busy schedule to do that, that is a dream. That’s what makes your dream real.
1. Know yourself. Believe in yourself. Listen to your gut. Your intuition. Be self-aware.
2. Work really hard. Work smart. Dream strategically. Have a plan of how you’re gonna achieve it.
I’m following that. And I’m sure I’m gonna get there. It’s just a matter of time. You will see.
If you’re willing to do anything, if you’re willing to go through hell, through any shit, then it’s a real dream. If you think that you are lazy, or you are so busy that you don’t have time to do that, or if you feel you’re too afraid to do that, and so on.. it’s not because you’re lazy, it’s because that’s not a real dream. It’s just a wish. That’s it. Everyone is lazy. Everyone has fears. Everyone is busy. But that’s actually when it shows is it a real dream or not?! When your desire of achieving your dream is stronger than your laziness, fears, and you can always find some time in your busy schedule to do that, that is a dream. That’s what makes your dream real.
1. Know yourself. Believe in yourself. Listen to your gut. Your intuition. Be self-aware.
2. Work really hard. Work smart. Dream strategically. Have a plan of how you’re gonna achieve it.
I’m following that. And I’m sure I’m gonna get there. It’s just a matter of time. You will see.
Books
As I remember myself, I started reading intentionally when I was 15 or something like that. I remember my first book I read was “Crime and Punishment”, it’s Dostoyevsky’s book. It’s a pretty tough book to read for the first time, but my desire to read and finish this book was much stronger.
After that, I became addicted to books. Reading is kinda like some sort of therapy for me, it brings me into the right headspace. Although I am not like a crazy reader, I read when I want to read, I don’t usually push myself.
Who likes to read books here? If you do like reading, text me your favorite one, I’d be happy to talk with you about it :) @TimurKann
As I remember myself, I started reading intentionally when I was 15 or something like that. I remember my first book I read was “Crime and Punishment”, it’s Dostoyevsky’s book. It’s a pretty tough book to read for the first time, but my desire to read and finish this book was much stronger.
After that, I became addicted to books. Reading is kinda like some sort of therapy for me, it brings me into the right headspace. Although I am not like a crazy reader, I read when I want to read, I don’t usually push myself.
Who likes to read books here? If you do like reading, text me your favorite one, I’d be happy to talk with you about it :) @TimurKann
Traveling
Traveling is another thing that I just love doing. And I know everyone would say they love traveling too, but I mean like really.. I don’t need to go to a fancy or famous place to enjoy traveling. I could basically go anywhere, if it’s place I’ve never been to, I would love to go there and explore it anyway.
Every time I travel, it makes me feel alive, you know what I mean?! Sometimes it’s just nice to get out of your city(or even country) for a while, to kinda refresh your mind. When you travel and explore new things, you also learn things about yourself.
Which I think is even more important than the traveling itself.
Traveling is another thing that I just love doing. And I know everyone would say they love traveling too, but I mean like really.. I don’t need to go to a fancy or famous place to enjoy traveling. I could basically go anywhere, if it’s place I’ve never been to, I would love to go there and explore it anyway.
Every time I travel, it makes me feel alive, you know what I mean?! Sometimes it’s just nice to get out of your city(or even country) for a while, to kinda refresh your mind. When you travel and explore new things, you also learn things about yourself.
Which I think is even more important than the traveling itself.
Weed
So now I’m staying in Great Barrington, it’s a small cute town in Massachusetts. And like a year ago they legalized marijuana. I already got some good stuff for myself, because I can’t miss the opportunity to try it.
And you know what, yesterday I got so stoned, I was lying on the ground watching stars in the sky with the headphones on, listening to the beautiful instrumental music. I was out of my head. I thought I’m in the space, literally. I thought I could reach to the stars with my hands. I’m definitely doing that again. Need your opinion, what do you think about marijuana?
Is it good or bad?
So now I’m staying in Great Barrington, it’s a small cute town in Massachusetts. And like a year ago they legalized marijuana. I already got some good stuff for myself, because I can’t miss the opportunity to try it.
And you know what, yesterday I got so stoned, I was lying on the ground watching stars in the sky with the headphones on, listening to the beautiful instrumental music. I was out of my head. I thought I’m in the space, literally. I thought I could reach to the stars with my hands. I’m definitely doing that again. Need your opinion, what do you think about marijuana?
Is it good or bad?
Lucky
Do you guys believe in luck? I think yeah, there is such a thing called luck, and I’m pretty sure that everyone has that in their life.
There is a good saying that says “Luck favores the well prepared”, which means luck likes those who is prepared to take the opportunity. But in order to be prepared you gotta work consistently everyday, and when the opportunity will show up(trust me it will) you will take that opportunity right away.
Do you guys believe in luck? I think yeah, there is such a thing called luck, and I’m pretty sure that everyone has that in their life.
There is a good saying that says “Luck favores the well prepared”, which means luck likes those who is prepared to take the opportunity. But in order to be prepared you gotta work consistently everyday, and when the opportunity will show up(trust me it will) you will take that opportunity right away.
Fever
FUCK!!!!! I got sick 🤒 On my last day of break I got a fever 🥵 now on my first day of work I don’t feel good. I hate being sick!!!!!
Especially when I have a performance next week, and I have to rehearse everyday, it’s so hard.. not the best time to get sick. God help me.
FUCK!!!!! I got sick 🤒 On my last day of break I got a fever 🥵 now on my first day of work I don’t feel good. I hate being sick!!!!!
Especially when I have a performance next week, and I have to rehearse everyday, it’s so hard.. not the best time to get sick. God help me.
Spontaneous
I like being spontaneous sometimes. Like today for example: I’m going with my friend to New-York city to audition for the Metropolitan Opera, they need male ballet dancers. And we decided to do that last night!
First of all today we had to be at work, and we said that we don’t feel good, so we asked for the day off. I actually don’t feel well, because I have a fever. Originally my friend is auditioning and I said I’ll go with him just for fun.
I don’t know why I’m going, I could’ve just stayed, I don’t know... even if there is no logical reason of me going today just for one day to New York when I’m sick(I’m actually, surprisingly feeling better), it just feels like doing it. It’s probably stupid of me doing that.
But that’s why it’s nice to be spontaneous sometimes, especially when you’re young. Not questioning your impulses. Usually your impulses are right and they know what you actually need to do, and what is actually better for you.
I like being spontaneous sometimes. Like today for example: I’m going with my friend to New-York city to audition for the Metropolitan Opera, they need male ballet dancers. And we decided to do that last night!
First of all today we had to be at work, and we said that we don’t feel good, so we asked for the day off. I actually don’t feel well, because I have a fever. Originally my friend is auditioning and I said I’ll go with him just for fun.
I don’t know why I’m going, I could’ve just stayed, I don’t know... even if there is no logical reason of me going today just for one day to New York when I’m sick(I’m actually, surprisingly feeling better), it just feels like doing it. It’s probably stupid of me doing that.
But that’s why it’s nice to be spontaneous sometimes, especially when you’re young. Not questioning your impulses. Usually your impulses are right and they know what you actually need to do, and what is actually better for you.
Decision
The strong person is the one who is willing to make hard decisions. Who actually does make hard decisions. Its all personal, everyone has some sort of decisions in their lives, when they have to decide something that seems hard for them.
And you gotta make sure that you make a decision to do something about it. Not doing anything about it is also a decision. And when you already made a decision, stop thinking and worrying about that, move forward!
The strong person is the one who is willing to make hard decisions. Who actually does make hard decisions. Its all personal, everyone has some sort of decisions in their lives, when they have to decide something that seems hard for them.
And you gotta make sure that you make a decision to do something about it. Not doing anything about it is also a decision. And when you already made a decision, stop thinking and worrying about that, move forward!
Hey people it’s been a while since I posted something in here. I’ve got a lot of stuff going on in my life right now. Also, my mood swings up and down like every other minute. I could feel really happy, than suddenly my mood just drops and I could feel stress with some kinda fear. I don’t know why, it’s weird.
I feel like mentally I became a lot weaker than I used to be. Probably, it has something to do with me missing my family, home, friends. It’s just fucking hard. But of coarse I will get through that. It’s not that big of a deal.
Now I think, I’m gonna be writing more in English, than in Russian. I need to try to focus more on that, starting using less Russian language, so I could get to the point where I will start to think in English. Because now I could easily speak English, I could pretty much understand anything in English, I could read in English, I could write in English. Now I should start to think in English.
That’s my next goal.
Ps. Hope you guys are having some improvements in your journey of learning English as well. Well, if you understood everything in this text, that means your English is already good!
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I feel like mentally I became a lot weaker than I used to be. Probably, it has something to do with me missing my family, home, friends. It’s just fucking hard. But of coarse I will get through that. It’s not that big of a deal.
Now I think, I’m gonna be writing more in English, than in Russian. I need to try to focus more on that, starting using less Russian language, so I could get to the point where I will start to think in English. Because now I could easily speak English, I could pretty much understand anything in English, I could read in English, I could write in English. Now I should start to think in English.
That’s my next goal.
Ps. Hope you guys are having some improvements in your journey of learning English as well. Well, if you understood everything in this text, that means your English is already good!
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Daaamn, I haven’t seen my family since October 2017!
In three days it’s gonna be two years of me living in the US.
Isn’t that crazy?!
In three days it’s gonna be two years of me living in the US.
Isn’t that crazy?!
Read!
You should read guys! You should read a lot! You should always read something! You should be like a detective, who’s always looking for books that has some wisdom and philosophy in it. They truly have a huge impact on the way we think and see the world.
Create your own personal library from books, which affected you the most. If you are that person, who says you are just naturally don’t like reading, it just means you haven’t tried it enough. Trust me, there is no person on Earth who likes every book they read. Those people who loves reading, who seems like they always read something, they just figured out what kind of books they like to read.
The same thing for you, in the beginning you just have to start to read books that everyone talks about, that are kinda popular. Try to read ten different books, and I promise that you will definitely like one or two of them. And then after that you will know what kinda books you like, and what kinda books you don’t like.
You should read guys! You should read a lot! You should always read something! You should be like a detective, who’s always looking for books that has some wisdom and philosophy in it. They truly have a huge impact on the way we think and see the world.
Create your own personal library from books, which affected you the most. If you are that person, who says you are just naturally don’t like reading, it just means you haven’t tried it enough. Trust me, there is no person on Earth who likes every book they read. Those people who loves reading, who seems like they always read something, they just figured out what kind of books they like to read.
The same thing for you, in the beginning you just have to start to read books that everyone talks about, that are kinda popular. Try to read ten different books, and I promise that you will definitely like one or two of them. And then after that you will know what kinda books you like, and what kinda books you don’t like.
Why do we always tend to get stuck in our small world in our head, thinking that we’re the only ones who have problems and difficulties ?!
Yes, some people do have an easier life than the others, but all people no matter where they came from face difficulties in life. It might be different kinds of problems, but that’s not the case, we all do have problems in life, or I would say, we all struggle with something..
and understanding that you are not the only one, will make your life easier.
Yes, some people do have an easier life than the others, but all people no matter where they came from face difficulties in life. It might be different kinds of problems, but that’s not the case, we all do have problems in life, or I would say, we all struggle with something..
and understanding that you are not the only one, will make your life easier.
Don’t worry you guys.. I didn’t forget about you. Just had some time with myself, trying to figure out who the fuck I am?!
Well.. I hope you got this part all figured out. Because I haven’t. I don’t think I ever will.. because life is fucking complicated and I don’t think there will ever be a moment of when you will have everything figured out. So maybe I should stop being a pussy and just fuckin’ live, make decisions, take risks, make my own mistakes.. live my own life for god’s sake!
In the meantime, my English is getting real good.. with time, with effort, with a lot of practice, and of coarse livin’ in da states.. it does its own job.
Yay!
Well.. I hope you got this part all figured out. Because I haven’t. I don’t think I ever will.. because life is fucking complicated and I don’t think there will ever be a moment of when you will have everything figured out. So maybe I should stop being a pussy and just fuckin’ live, make decisions, take risks, make my own mistakes.. live my own life for god’s sake!
In the meantime, my English is getting real good.. with time, with effort, with a lot of practice, and of coarse livin’ in da states.. it does its own job.
Yay!
Evening.
9 pm.
Flower.
Airplane.
Taking shower.
Speaker.
Music(Post Malone - Congratulations, The Mamas & The Papas - California Dreamin’ [Single], The Scripts - Hall of Fame, Drake - God’s Plan, Michael Jackson - Man in the Mirror, Rigoletto: Act ||| - “La Donna e Mobile”).
Water.
Body.
Warm.
Songs.
Jamming out.
Waves.
15 minutes.
Around.
End.
9 pm.
Flower.
Airplane.
Taking shower.
Speaker.
Music(Post Malone - Congratulations, The Mamas & The Papas - California Dreamin’ [Single], The Scripts - Hall of Fame, Drake - God’s Plan, Michael Jackson - Man in the Mirror, Rigoletto: Act ||| - “La Donna e Mobile”).
Water.
Body.
Warm.
Songs.
Jamming out.
Waves.
15 minutes.
Around.
End.
Get comfortable with loosing
I feel like if you want to win in life — you need to loose a lot at first, or at least be comfortable with it. That’s why people don’t aim high, because they’re so terrified of loosing.
It’s normal. I’m afraid of loosing too. But i understand that if you want to win in life, you gotta be comfortable with loosing. It’s life. Loose nine times and win once, — then you are a winner. But you have to be willing to go through those “nine” failures.
So get comfortable with loosing. Sooner you realize that, I’m telling you, life gets so much easier.
I feel like if you want to win in life — you need to loose a lot at first, or at least be comfortable with it. That’s why people don’t aim high, because they’re so terrified of loosing.
It’s normal. I’m afraid of loosing too. But i understand that if you want to win in life, you gotta be comfortable with loosing. It’s life. Loose nine times and win once, — then you are a winner. But you have to be willing to go through those “nine” failures.
So get comfortable with loosing. Sooner you realize that, I’m telling you, life gets so much easier.
I’d like to add that by risking everything and willing to loose everything you have for whatever it is you want — you’re gonna win inevitably. It might not happen over night, in a year, in five years, maybe in ten, who knows?!
But it will happen eventually,
if you’ll just keep on moving.
So don’t stop.
Life is a marathon, not a sprint.
A lotta people might be ahead of me right now, because they’re running fast, they’re running the sprint(the short distance), while I’m taking it slowly, because I’m running a marathon, I’m playing the long term game.
But it will happen eventually,
if you’ll just keep on moving.
So don’t stop.
Life is a marathon, not a sprint.
A lotta people might be ahead of me right now, because they’re running fast, they’re running the sprint(the short distance), while I’m taking it slowly, because I’m running a marathon, I’m playing the long term game.
Black Lives Matter
You all probably already know what is happening right now in the US. People are mad, angry and they are protesting,
Because of the death of George Floyd, and MANY others, who just weren’t documented.
Because of the discrimination that comes from white people towards other races, especially black people.
Because of the police, which uses its authority in a wrong way. Police are supposed to save lives, instead of taking them away. Of coarse there are many exceptions, but after a certain point it just feels like it’s the police who should be policed these days.
People are just asking for the equality. Equality in civil rights. It’s that simple!
People are sick of the terrible consequences which the white supremacy has caused. And please, don’t get me wrong – I’m not against anyone or anything, I’m just saying the facts. And maybe it’s not my place to say anything about it, but I feel like i need to say this , because that feels like the right thing to do right now.
Things are slowly, but surely changing, and hopefully it’ll bring more good than bad into this world.
I hope you all have a good day 💙
You all probably already know what is happening right now in the US. People are mad, angry and they are protesting,
Because of the death of George Floyd, and MANY others, who just weren’t documented.
Because of the discrimination that comes from white people towards other races, especially black people.
Because of the police, which uses its authority in a wrong way. Police are supposed to save lives, instead of taking them away. Of coarse there are many exceptions, but after a certain point it just feels like it’s the police who should be policed these days.
People are just asking for the equality. Equality in civil rights. It’s that simple!
People are sick of the terrible consequences which the white supremacy has caused. And please, don’t get me wrong – I’m not against anyone or anything, I’m just saying the facts. And maybe it’s not my place to say anything about it, but I feel like i need to say this , because that feels like the right thing to do right now.
Things are slowly, but surely changing, and hopefully it’ll bring more good than bad into this world.
I hope you all have a good day 💙