I'm not sure if this will work for you, but my "anchor" to motivate me to keep going was doubling down on my pride (which I had from being an arrogant piece of shit as a teenager) and turning it into a motivation to refuse to let anything ruin my day

Like an attitude of "No, I won't accept this, fuck you" whenever I felt like things were bad, whenever I felt hopeless. How dare life treat me this way?

I'm not going to just lower my head and let life treat me this way

It's not arrogance to put so much value on yourself if you're not hurting others for your own benefit. So this is what kept pushing me forward, until it became "the normal"

Not that my life is easy now, but I found a way to deal with it that works for me

Maybe you'll find something that works for you too

All of this just to say "I cope by being angry"

Unironically except I'm pan

Current state of mind: I spent half an hour trying to change my avatar and felt too detached from my sense of self to choose anything

So I'll be a disembodied voice in your mind for now

Courage has seen some fucking shit

Tag yourselves, I'm Maria Máquina

So this is what I spent the entire day doing

If life gives you lemons, grab a CEO and wring them

I will not elaborate on that