With time you will realize, silence is the breaking point between your flow of emotions and your sadness, you are neither sad or overloaded with a bunch of feelings, you are just silent. And you wish not to go between any of your usual extremes, because although your heart is tired, it finally realized, and your soul is not floating between chaotic wind as always, it's silent, you no longer wish to try, nor you want to fight for anything or anyone, you let things be as they are and you just watch in silence.
Yasmine Lasheen.
Yasmine Lasheen.
get tired but learn how to get up.
it's hard when you are showering yourself with assurance of chances yet you are in the darkness phase. it's hard to bloom as wild flowers when you bear in yourself that you will stay in the phase of sadness; hide yourself in the corner of your room and isolate yourself instead of facing the world that awaits you outside of your comfort zone. i know you are struggling right now, your heart burst with thunders and crash of pain waves and you can't do anything but to weigh it and face tomorrow written with uncertainties.
get tired but take a rest.
it's hard when you are showering yourself with assurance of chances yet you are in the darkness phase. it's hard to bloom as wild flowers when you bear in yourself that you will stay in the phase of sadness; hide yourself in the corner of your room and isolate yourself instead of facing the world that awaits you outside of your comfort zone. i know you are struggling right now, your heart burst with thunders and crash of pain waves and you can't do anything but to weigh it and face tomorrow written with uncertainties.
get tired but take a rest.
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you deserve the rest that will let your mind be in peace. let your body lay in cotton clouds. the rest that doesn't allow you to daydream. rest that can shut down your worries. free yourself from any bottled-up emotion, no matter how you get used to it. lend yourself with gentleness after sabotaging it. in order to get up you have to change your perspective about life, that being messed up is totally fine, it's a way to be brave and come back stronger for your younger self. to prove that you can. i hope, after this tiring trying of living, you will get excite about life again.
—myth.
—myth.
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keep on going; remember that you've come so far. and it is not over yet, as long as you are breathing.
amidst all the hardship that you're facing, you are still here; not giving up. that even there's a thought of you that something has no point, you are still going. and even though you are far from being what you want to be, you know that you will still get there. eventually, it will be worth it. i promise.
amidst all the hardship that you're facing, you are still here; not giving up. that even there's a thought of you that something has no point, you are still going. and even though you are far from being what you want to be, you know that you will still get there. eventually, it will be worth it. i promise.
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sometimes, this house doesn't feel like a home; it is no longer a home.
when the people inside of it are like strangers, not a family. when you get nothing but pressure, disappointments, trauma, and pain. the people inside of it lacks of giving you support, sympathy, empathy, and understanding. you don't get what you wanted and you are getting invalidated; you felt like a nobody, like you do not belong in it.
when the people inside of it are like strangers, not a family. when you get nothing but pressure, disappointments, trauma, and pain. the people inside of it lacks of giving you support, sympathy, empathy, and understanding. you don't get what you wanted and you are getting invalidated; you felt like a nobody, like you do not belong in it.
lately is a different kind of day. a lot of things have been running in my mind nonstop. there's too much to think about and it's getting hard to stand with them at the same time. i know i have control over these thoughts in my head, but they just won't allow me to interfere.
sometimes i wanna cry, like letting the tears out of my freaking eyes to somehow feel light and easy. i wanna have someone to hold me because even my body can't stand the pain of being alone. but i know, afterward, even if i lose sight of counting the stars, i still have to go on and fulfill the promise of my younger self. maybe i am just losing my will on everything now, but i have to find the little hope in me to spark again.
anyways, i know i am not the only one who's feeling this way. i know we all have situations to face, and i only hope for one thing, that is, to survive each day with a braver heart.
—Dia
sometimes i wanna cry, like letting the tears out of my freaking eyes to somehow feel light and easy. i wanna have someone to hold me because even my body can't stand the pain of being alone. but i know, afterward, even if i lose sight of counting the stars, i still have to go on and fulfill the promise of my younger self. maybe i am just losing my will on everything now, but i have to find the little hope in me to spark again.
anyways, i know i am not the only one who's feeling this way. i know we all have situations to face, and i only hope for one thing, that is, to survive each day with a braver heart.
—Dia
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Hi! I know you are overthinking again. For so many times already, you told yourself that you are not going to overthink anymore, but maybe that is just our biggest pretend. We cannot stop the outrageous thoughts from entering and consuming our minds for a while. They are so persistent on trying to make us tired. Nevertheless, I still hope that you’ll be able to take a break from your exhausting thoughts and see the world with a better perspective. I hope you will be free from being a prisoner of overthinking. I want you to know that you don’t need to have everything figured out. I’m still proud of you and I hope you are also proud of yourself.
—Franz Mherryon
—Franz Mherryon
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Why do it feels so heavy again lately? I keep trying to distract myself just so I could escape from this sadness, but it seems to me like I'm drowning deeper in despair. I wish I could express the right words for this kind of feeling, but I guess no words can ever describe it. Even if I say, I feel so empty or sometimes I feel lonely, it's just not enough. It weighs down my heart and soul.
I wish I could figure out how to be strong in this situation. Because the truth is, most of the time, I feel like giving up on myself. Sometimes, I wish I could just disappear. Sometimes, I'm too tired of everything that I think about running away. Is there any way to remain strong while I'm watching myself falling apart?
People say that there are so many reasons to be happy, but here I am, confused about what they say. Because sadness have stayed way too long in my heart that I can no longer remember how it feels like to be happy.
— Shiori X
I wish I could figure out how to be strong in this situation. Because the truth is, most of the time, I feel like giving up on myself. Sometimes, I wish I could just disappear. Sometimes, I'm too tired of everything that I think about running away. Is there any way to remain strong while I'm watching myself falling apart?
People say that there are so many reasons to be happy, but here I am, confused about what they say. Because sadness have stayed way too long in my heart that I can no longer remember how it feels like to be happy.
— Shiori X
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i found myself distancing from
everyone and once again
starting to build walls in front of me
i found myself drifting apart from
the people i cherish and value the
most just because i feel like my presence
was no longer needed and appreciated
i found myself isolating my whole
being because i feel like my efforts were not really that important nor seen by anyone.
i found myself constantly disappearing
from everyone’s life because i feel
like i was disregarded and that my
existence was not really necessary
i don’t blame them everytime that i am
feeling this emotion but i tend to avoid
them as much as i can and prevent
myself from engaging in their whereabouts
i silent myself when they are around
because i don’t want my presence
to bother them or to make them feel
like they are responsible to talk to me.
somehow, it is just really draining me
for always trying so hard to fit in a
group of people and for always trying
to approach them first so that they
can be aware that i am here too—
that i am with them as well.
everyone and once again
starting to build walls in front of me
i found myself drifting apart from
the people i cherish and value the
most just because i feel like my presence
was no longer needed and appreciated
i found myself isolating my whole
being because i feel like my efforts were not really that important nor seen by anyone.
i found myself constantly disappearing
from everyone’s life because i feel
like i was disregarded and that my
existence was not really necessary
i don’t blame them everytime that i am
feeling this emotion but i tend to avoid
them as much as i can and prevent
myself from engaging in their whereabouts
i silent myself when they are around
because i don’t want my presence
to bother them or to make them feel
like they are responsible to talk to me.
somehow, it is just really draining me
for always trying so hard to fit in a
group of people and for always trying
to approach them first so that they
can be aware that i am here too—
that i am with them as well.
To the strong woman,
the girl who cries alone, the girl that everybody's backbone including her own, who put others first, who is straightforward, never twirls away from morals,
You deserve the world, you deserve everything in this world.
I know things maybe rough right now, but always have a faith. Your day will come, you will get what you deserve.
Be patient and continue to be kind, continue to be a good example, because we need a woman like you.
A woman with a heart of Gold.🖤
the girl who cries alone, the girl that everybody's backbone including her own, who put others first, who is straightforward, never twirls away from morals,
You deserve the world, you deserve everything in this world.
I know things maybe rough right now, but always have a faith. Your day will come, you will get what you deserve.
Be patient and continue to be kind, continue to be a good example, because we need a woman like you.
A woman with a heart of Gold.🖤
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As I grow up I realized that life will test you so many times until the day that being strong is your only choice, I've experienced countless breakdowns, feeling lost while asking myself what is my purpose, I found myself settling for less and judge by a lot of people, I've been used and forgotten but I don't regret any of those moments because I've learned a lot.
I've learned how to be tough and to guard my heart when it's necessary. I've learned that history sometimes never repeats itself and sometimes you have to let go and move towards the blessings you deserve. I've been buried in the dark a few times and I learned to love myself in there. Being in the dark doesn't mean you've been defeated because hope begins in the dark, the bigger the hope in your heart the wider the light that will mold you to be the better version of yourself.
— Balt
I've learned how to be tough and to guard my heart when it's necessary. I've learned that history sometimes never repeats itself and sometimes you have to let go and move towards the blessings you deserve. I've been buried in the dark a few times and I learned to love myself in there. Being in the dark doesn't mean you've been defeated because hope begins in the dark, the bigger the hope in your heart the wider the light that will mold you to be the better version of yourself.
— Balt
i wish to hold you but not in rainbow-like days nor in sunshine walks of sunflower roads. i wish to hold you but not when you’re on top of marshmallows clouds nor lying in lollies grass. i wish to hold you but not when your eyes glimmer like a star up above. when your lips are sealed with cherry smiles or when you’re in your genuine self.
instead, i want to hold you during your restless days. at times that you need to conquer your fears. when you’re lost and suffocated. those days that you feel betrayed, unappreciated, and unworthy. i want to hold you when your traumas flashed unexpectedly. everytime that you’re having unanswered questions and what if’s, and when you’re doubting yourself.
i need you to know that i want to hold you more at your darkness, to make you feel secured and loved, and to remind you that you’re not alone because you have me. you will always have me.
instead, i want to hold you during your restless days. at times that you need to conquer your fears. when you’re lost and suffocated. those days that you feel betrayed, unappreciated, and unworthy. i want to hold you when your traumas flashed unexpectedly. everytime that you’re having unanswered questions and what if’s, and when you’re doubting yourself.
i need you to know that i want to hold you more at your darkness, to make you feel secured and loved, and to remind you that you’re not alone because you have me. you will always have me.
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One of the worst feelings is when you constantly feel like you are not good enough, no matter how hard you try. It loses confidence and will eventually lead to questioning your worth. I admit that I've been feeling this for a long time. I feel like no matter what I do, it's just not enough. I feel like there is something wrong with me, and it makes me sad whenever I think about it.
Little by little, I want to build my confidence again. But it's hard when somebody else also makes you feel like you're not enough. It just makes you feel more terrible about yourself, and sometimes you just want to believe that. I've cried so many times, telling myself that I am a failure. And honestly, I'm tired. I am so tired that sometimes I just want to run away from everyone who makes me feel unappreciated.
— Shiori X
Little by little, I want to build my confidence again. But it's hard when somebody else also makes you feel like you're not enough. It just makes you feel more terrible about yourself, and sometimes you just want to believe that. I've cried so many times, telling myself that I am a failure. And honestly, I'm tired. I am so tired that sometimes I just want to run away from everyone who makes me feel unappreciated.
— Shiori X
Trust me, it's okay to sometimes feel nothing at all, especially if the world has already made you feel too much. It's perfectly fine to choose not to listen to anyone or not to laugh at jokes that aren’t even funny anyway, just you on one side and the rest of the world on the other.
When you've been through the days when you have to walk the streets with a heart so heavy, I learned that it's never selfish to ignore the world for a while and just focus on trying to save yourself a little. You owe that to yourself.
— Jun Mark Patilan
When you've been through the days when you have to walk the streets with a heart so heavy, I learned that it's never selfish to ignore the world for a while and just focus on trying to save yourself a little. You owe that to yourself.
— Jun Mark Patilan
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When I say I'm tired, it doesn't mean I am giving up. I just feel so exhausted in everything, that no matter how many times I force myself to get up, I still end up feeling completely wear out. I've been thinking about my life and it's a shame on me seeing myself helplessly not progressing. I can't even make myself proud.
When I say I'm tired, I want people to understand me. I want them to appreciate me eventhough I will never be enough to impress them. I want them to give me silence for awhile or simply leave me alone. I never want to quit, but at least give me a time to rest from this tiredness.
I may have failed so many times, but I am working hard to make myself better. I'm tired proving myself to anyone. But I wish they know that before they become disppointed with me, I've already been disappointed with myself for a long time.
— Shiori X
When I say I'm tired, I want people to understand me. I want them to appreciate me eventhough I will never be enough to impress them. I want them to give me silence for awhile or simply leave me alone. I never want to quit, but at least give me a time to rest from this tiredness.
I may have failed so many times, but I am working hard to make myself better. I'm tired proving myself to anyone. But I wish they know that before they become disppointed with me, I've already been disappointed with myself for a long time.
— Shiori X
Note to self:
Allow yourself to be happy. I know how many heartbreaks you've been through and how much sadness you've been keeping in your heart lately. I know sometimes you feel like questioning your worth because you feel like you are not enough in everything. But today, I want you to know that you deserve to be happy. I want you to stop settling for less than what you deserve and start appreciating yourself more often. I want you to be the best version of yourself, not to please others but to be proud of yourself. Little by little, I hope you plant love in yourself so that you will never grow into hatred.
Allow yourself to be happy. I know how many heartbreaks you've been through and how much sadness you've been keeping in your heart lately. I know sometimes you feel like questioning your worth because you feel like you are not enough in everything. But today, I want you to know that you deserve to be happy. I want you to stop settling for less than what you deserve and start appreciating yourself more often. I want you to be the best version of yourself, not to please others but to be proud of yourself. Little by little, I hope you plant love in yourself so that you will never grow into hatred.
I want you to see your worth because, all this time, you've been treating yourself poorly. I know how kind you are to others, but please don't forget to be kind to yourself too. Know to yourself that you are precious. I want you to know that you didn't deserve all the pain that you have received and endured for a long time. Allow yourself to heal as well. Not everything is meant to be broken, and so you are. I know that it's not easy right now because, for a very long time, you used to believe that you would never be okay. That you will never be happy. But today, I want you to remind yourself that it's not too late to become a better and happier version of yourself. And one day, I hope you'll finally realize that treating and loving yourself right will make you feel more worthy.
— Shiori X
— Shiori X