Stalker(1979)

Faith, Art and Science walk into a bar?

Don't know what else to make of this film.

Funniest moment is when the stalker and the writer went on a perilous stroll to find the scientist already there having a sandwich.😁

Reminds me of something I wrote in highschool.
...
I'm a brief second in an era
A presence too faint to be felt
A drop of water in the sea
A tiny black dot on a sheet

In shallow ponds, in oceans deep
I run, I walk, I crawl and creep
In bliss, in bloom, in fall, in gloom
In others' joys and in their fume

Your handiwork, Your masterpiece
Beseeches You, please do rejoice
With drawn lifelines, embedded voice
I pursue skills of absent choice

A brief second in Your epoch
I kick and scratch from dawn til dusk
In strife, in peace, in good and bad
Until the knock from death shall sound

This year must be the worst reading year I've had so far. I mean in terms of the amount of reading I've done. I talked about reading and watched more reading content than I actually read.

By being active on telegram, I discovered many interesting channels and people, which I'm really happy about.

On the other hand, this channel is holding up so much of my headspace as I feel the urge to immortalize my unrefined, fleeting thoughts and emotions several times a day. I don't like that.

I'm not gonna overcorrect and delete this channel or anything. Luther needs his door after all.😉

This is an indefinite suspension while we go out in search of our destinies.
I'll meet you under the willow.

I'll leave you with Pessoa. We should all be left with Pessoa.💜

Death Of An Artist

By Alexander Raju

If death's inevitable, die at the right time,
While people retain you dear to their hearts;

Don't die too young, before your talents proved
That your death a devastation to the world;

Don't die too old that you a skeleton turned,
Your body shrunk to a shrimp, and face dried;

Die when your image is quite fresh and clear
In the minds of your kith and kins so dear;

Die when others could say, ‘early a bit'
That a few drops of tears would stain their cheeks;

Do your best and leave your life incomplete,
Give yourself a chance for a life second;

Hate the longevity of Tithonus,
Be Ulysses and conquer your lifespan;

Live and die a beauty, and be content,
For singing you stopped when your voice was good.

"Do I have an original thought in my head? My bald head. Maybe if I were happier, my hair wouldn't be falling out. Life is short. I need to make the most of it.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
hhffff, I'm a walking cliché.
I really need to go to the doctor and have my leg checked. There's something wrong. A bump. The dentist called again. I'm way overdue.
If I stop putting things off, I would be happier. All I do is sit on my fat ass.
If my ass wasn't fat I would be happier. I wouldn't have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time. Like that's fooling anyone. Fat ass.
I should start jogging again. Five miles a day. Really do it this time. Maybe rock climbing.
I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more, improve myself.
What if I learned Russian or something? Or took up an instrument? I could speak Chinese. I'd be the screenwriter who speaks Chinese and plays the oboe. That would be cool.
I should get my hair cut short. Stop trying to fool myself and everyone else into thinking I have a full head of hair. How pathetic is that?
Just be real. Confident. Isn't that what women are attracted to? Men don't have to be attractive. But that's not true. Especially these days. Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days.

Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence?
Maybe it's my brain chemistry. Maybe that's what's wrong with me. Bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses. I need to get help for that. But I'll still be ugly though. Nothing's gonna change that."

- Charlie Kaufman, Adaptation (2002)

Alone

"From childhood’s hour I have not been
As others were, I have not seen
As others saw, I could not bring
My passions from a common spring
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow, I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone
And all I loved, I loved alone"

-Edgar Allan Poe

Prep for the AI apocalypse😉

You can say Feminism this Feminism that, but attacking a whole movement for a single person is wrong. Because በተሳሳተ ሆነ በተቃና Feminism in its early rise that it has in our country, we should work to shape it for good than ጉድጓድ ምሰን ለመቅበር ከምንሮጥ። I don't personally agree some paths and ideas of some of the vocal feminists on Tiktok, but it doesn't mean i should hate on the whole movement ፥ የሚጋጥፈጡትን ጭቆና ደጋፊ ሆኜ መገኘት የለብኝም.

You know why ...

I work in Somali region ያለ Hospital. And if only you saw,

* Where I work at 90% በላይ ሴቶች have Type 3 FGM i.e Infibulation የሚባለው አይነት ግርዛት ፥ ተቆርጦ ሁሉም ደግሞ የሚሰፋው

* Where I work at የተሰፉ ወጣት ሴቶች come with period pain and even puerperal infection በጣም ጠቦ ተሰፍቶ, having no exit for their menstrual flow and it accumulating for days n weeks

*Where I work at young 15/16/17 year old teenager comes with her mother at night prior to her weeding to some ብዙ ግመል የሰጠ 80 year old የተሰፋውን ለመክፈት before her wedding and also for the mother to check the child's virginity still being there by the local nurses ... mind you እንግዲህ this is in a government hospital

* Where i work at a woman on her 6th 7th pregnancy comes ምጥ ይዟት while ባሏ ትቷት ለስራ ሌላ ቦታ የሚሄድ ከሆነ ለምን አስር አትወልድም ሲሄድ አሰፍቷት ነው ... mind you a 30 35 year old mother of 6 7 kids in. labour ተሰፍታ then ተከፍቶ she gives birth n as soon as she goes home ድጋሚ ትሰፋለች። A sad never ending cycle

*Where I work at the CEO of the hospital, mind you a Doctor who learned in Addis has his female children go through FGM or else the society will ostracize them and him n she would be unmarried forever

*Where I work at complicate አድርጎ the pregnancy either the kid or the mother or both will die unless Operation is done ሲባል the mother can't decide. If her father says no, በቃ እምቢ አለ ነው ... Operate ከተደረገች ቶሎ አታረግግዝም ደግማ ብሎ .... Uterus Rupture. አርጎ a mother and the baby died on my watch because both her husband and father said no to operation

ብቻ ብዙ ብዙ

ጠርበን through being an ally of women and helping symbiotically through Feminism our women liberate ማረግ ሲገባን the educated የተባልነው እንዲህ ጭፍን መሆናችን ያሳዝናል

At last as Jay Z said
"No civilization is conquered from the outside until it destroys itself from within."

-from Facebook.

Whatever movements accomplish or don't accomplish, whoever they offend and alienate, whatever reservations , social points and cynicism want to hold us back from participating...they should not deter us.

No one bats an eye about protesting big tech with clippy profile pics but when it comes to the rape and murder of women, it suddenly becomes a ground for debate.

Neon green profiles will not abolish the problem, they certainly won't bring back these women or heal the victims families. But if an onslaught of bold, glaring neon greens make the tiniest difference in the suffering of women, we should have it on our profiles and sign the petitions.

It's vibrant, it's visible, it's revealing and it will announce your presence to the deaf. Why should that stop you?

Oh, and if people call you feminist, that's not something to recoil from. If feminism means putting a spotlight on women's suffering and doing this tiny thing to fight it, then in Adichie's words, we should all be feminists!