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letting myself evolve through dark ways to be part of something bigger, but yet i succumb to easiest of desires.

'' The ones who are desperate for love won't ever find it, irony is that love always falls in the hands of people who does not value it ''

seeking attention and achieving validation is the only real thing people want. it pleasures them superficially.

the feeling of emptiness, where you know something different might happen this time, but also aware of everything which can go downhill

*sips 50mg in 50ml*

Suraj //R, [21/04/2024 04:26]
i had this ability of learning from my mistakes

Suraj //R, [21/04/2024 04:26]
which i'm losing now. i don't like repeating same shit over

i found out that i have major anger issues

but the fact i was not aware of it, and my mom breaks this to me.

addicted to all the wrong things, mostly bad traits.

I'm batman

i love red, honestly

you're living somebody's dream life.

if god appears, you won't be able to differentiate between him and the devil.

i have never met a literate who believes in superstitions.

some people are so dumb, they feel like drugged 24/7

"जिस तरह केवल बल का होना
आपको पुरुष नहीं बनाता
ठीक वैसे ही केवल सौंदर्य
आपको स्त्री नहीं बनाता"

- स्नेहा दाधीच

is there any felicity in living a monotonous life?
I want to explore, go places, have multiple friends, try everything. live me life.

but would i be called dumb if wish to be in a stagnant place throughout the journey? or is this the feeling of burnout?

I'd rather spend my whole life waking up and cook something for the girl i love and do my job and probably kiss her on the neck and repeat the same next day. I don't wish to have a future where i act instinctively and do whatever my wish says.

though, i'll never have a life like that, my ambition contradicts this idea. and i think my ambitions is capable of crushing my wishes any day.

maybe in some other life.