17. What is your idea of happiness?

i thought for a long time, and—i dont know.
I'd be happy if i had any idea, also
asking me my idea of a feeling is very rude, because why do you wanna know how i perceive them.

18. what superpower would you want and why?

copying every abilties and conjuring every abilties with just thinking about it, with a pre loaded database of all the superpowers known to humankind right now.

19. Any niche interest of yours?

thinking, thinking with everybody i meet in the whole day.

20. what do you fear people might say about you after your death?

logically i wouldn't even know or care because i have ceased to exist.
emotionally i fear, that people don't call me a bad person.

21. is it easier to love or to be loved?

to be loved, you allow the flow to come in and cut the connection off the moment you feel full.

to love? uh oh you just keep giving in, flowing in, and you can't stop the flow even if you get depleted.

you should now know what's easier

22. do you have any regrets and how do you deal with it

i don't have any regrets.

as i have said

how did i deal with it?
by simply letting go, letting go of my worries, of my actions, of connections

alright I'm tired now, maybe next time.

the way i fuckin screamed RAHHHHH

regrets, do i have none? or do i just don't feel the weight of them

23. man, what's your take on online relationships?

no harsh take, love doesn't need a presence to conjure up... it can happen anyhow, if you're in love with somebody you met online, then you're in love with your own idea of them, not them as a person.
my personal take on online relationship is neutral.

24. what opinion do you have on male and female can't be friends quote said by society! is it ultimately true? or wrong to some extent.

those who can't be just friends, are people who are unsatisfied with their lives. it will take a lot of thinking to digest what it means to be satisfied with life, society will always say things which is morally untrue. who even listens to society?

25. how to deal with past baggage and trauma, especially when it has become your personality


im sorry, i don't know. I'm a result of my past traumas, baggages, etc and that is my personality. i wouldn't know any better.

i have tried to turn all these waves in a right direction, but some of them have caused destruction in my life and i have stopped minding those damage.

26. How to get into decaffeination

counter question: why? just why?

can an avoidant bitch like me find someone who will love me for the rest of my life?

i now understand why people kill themself

i thought i used to understand how i feel now, but i'm still very out of touch, with my mind, with my own self.

i'm even losing power to intellectualize my horror and sadness, my awareness has pushed me off the edge, to a point where there's no land to stand on and i'm continuously falling. i can't even form a proper cope up strategy to suppress everything, because i can't anymore.