rain noise (sound, sweet) so high, i can't listen to my music even on home theater

“No, that is Lewis wearing his heart on his sleeve. It's what he thought very much when he was asked after the session was very raw.”

“He was doubting himself, and we had it in the past. When he felt that he had underperformed his own expectations, and the team had its own goal, he's been that emotional, emotionally transparent since he was a young boy, a young adult.”

“So, he's going to beat himself up. He's the GOAT. And he will always be the GOAT, and nobody's going to take that away. For sure, no single weekend or race season that hasn't gone to plan.”

— When questioned about Hamilton's useless comment, Wolff said.

getting called out is still the best feeling to my nerves. nothing more sensory than having being judged of the performa you're pulling

and for the final act of performance, my story will be get bury with me and noone shall have the key to my casket.

i think i realise now, i haven't felt anything of any sort. I'm not a lonely soul, just a brat who is greedy.
i have never felt real sorrow.
all those people who said my life is like a movie, prolly sees everything as a movie or don't know what a movie is at all.
i wish the pain in my life remains constant, as it has been for whole of my life.
Because i dont think I'll be able to survive a real pain, a pain which drags your thought to hell with it, a thought which makes you euthanize yourself for the sake of not feeling anything, instead of developing a coping mechanism.

I'm just a fragile boy, who don't understand or the know the meaning of anything because how can i? my life is smooth, there has never been any speed breakers as of yet. what do you consider a happy life? smooth ride with a little bump or a terrain with blockades all over the road?