but i wanna make it myself, and i dont know how

how do you make a taco in the first place 🙁

i made it, but idk if i made taco or some totally different dish 😭

"Humans 'are not, in fact, going to read nothing [...] if you don't read good books you will read bad ones. If you don't go on thinking rationally, you will think irrationally.”

maybe i always had emotional maturity but i was too just scared to to even look towards it.
i built distractions—logic, roles, rebellion, silence.

now i'm getting more self aware, the kind which makes me wonder if "is it even my self?"

i hope the perfect armada i built with my rationality and diplomacy doesn't sink in this thunderstorm

"this is just not for you"

- Sit down and watch

i eat the same amount of diet as him
i sleep in a day often more than him
i use more resources than him

i do less work than him
i earn nowhere near him
i don't have even 3/4th his responsibilities
i know less than him
i am a joke when it comes to him

this day doesn't make me feel more appreciative of his sacrifice rather it just wanna make me kill myself out if shame. no, it's not rhetoric.

am i ever? gonna look like him?