I hope me staying away from Internet doesn't make you think i got a life or something it's just that I got extra time to spoil myself (rot in bed)

"Kuchh is tarah zindagi ne zaleel kiya hame ham muddaton tak khudse apna gunehgar puchhte rahe"

this was sitting on my local since years, glad my wifi went off and i found this file again

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Dunnottar Castle, Stonehaven, Aberdeenshire, Scotland

Kikiki rrrraa sweat sweat rooro

Rob Gonsalve

perfectionism sounds cool to those who doesn't have it, because people romanticized it so much. but once you put that idea in your head and really follow its framework, you realise how shallow and hurtful this path really is......it's like religion...you were told if you do certain rituals god will reward you and keep you with him but i don't wanna talk about religion, it's too cliche and boring anyways, perfectionism is exactly that, you were told you're gonna find a certain "destination" where you'll be awarded with 3 stars and a legendary "you're perfect" medal but you get what?
a big middle fuckin finger because there is no such path, just keep rolling in the woods and cry about it because you're doomed and with each cycle you're gonna get absorbed more into this pit of frustration, despair and anxiety that "You're not fucking perfect". it feels holy but it's a cult and you're sacrificing yourself on the altar.
so my silly lovely people, stop the romanticization of this abhorrent shit.

because you'll never find an art imperfectly perfect and perfectly imperfect.

i wish i had an elder sister to guide me with things i don't understand and don't wish to understand. it sucks

i still feel that childish instinct when i go to a store and see all the paint brush hanging there.....the urge to just get them and start painting random things.

i was not looking far enough, the end is a life like felix, bjorn and marzia.