law of equivalence

"If someone is willing to take my freedom, I won’t hesitate to take theirs."
- Eren Yeager

those who see a burnt garden and choose to walk away are smart

The Fall of Babylon, 1831

John Martin

there are moments where my life's like it's in turmoil just to realise it's just me who's spinning in circles.

"everything about you is fine except the part where you hold onto things"

a bit of colour is all it took for my skin to start shedding again, waste of whole year worth of medication which went to gorilaz ass

festivals are scary. i hope it doesn't exist

i'm back to regressing now, no wonder it took so long for me to reach here again, many people objected but i kept suppressing it, now I'm reflecting my whole and realised that I'm just a shallow, mindless entity roaming on the streets pretending to be satisfied. fuck.

i didn't think the depth this time will be so much, because i can't even see the shore yet,

the island is too far away and i'm too tired to swim. it's time i realise i need to just starve myself on this lonely tip rock

oh god how can i show myself smiling when all i am is just a lump of sorrow?

am i really that worthless? am i really that pathetic? do i really look so pity in everybody's eyes? so fucking ugly? i thought i deserved everything when all i deserve is a fucking middle finger up my face.

fuckkkk why am i still asking questions when i know everything for certain.
fucking learn to accept and keep your head low if that's what you think you should do. never look up and keep listening to whatever others say, don't ever talk back and live a life in pity because you're a fucking scumbag, who doesn't care about anything at all but just yourself.

are you really gonna be okay with this? being the smaller one? if no then fucking start acting differently and if you still cannot do it then kill your self immediately because i don't wanna live in a body or obey a brain who doesn't do what i wish to

end it forever

so cooked, turned my back for a moment