get me a gun and i'll show you the most amazing 1 min of your life

BREAK HER HEART???
- in half

i want my hardships to get over, and have a sense of comfort where i don't worry about my next minute and continuously live in regression state, feeling like my value is degrading. i want to embrace few days like, "Yes, i truly lived it" instead of "Yea, i made it productive by the last minute".

but
but what will be my purpose if to not constantly grow in this life, i mean, i have never felt happy after achieving something but the yearning for it is more delightful.

or maybe i'm too tired from the same thing over and over again, at some point we need to.

but
but quitting after winning is the only acceptable trope for me, there's no other choice....
i can never say "fuck it, this is too tough, i'm out". Never Ever

i want to win, win it all, win to prove everybody that nothing is impossible to me, i will get it if i want it. be it any fucking thing.

i don't wanna be looked down and have people say, "look at that guy, says a lot, does nothing, a sore loser"
fuck no, i wanna prove to every soul out there, that, i am the most competitive one out here.

i don't wanna live a trash commoner filthy life.

absolute power tends to corrupt absolutely

silly how
confident succeeds with bitch and insecure with sweetheart

angel's voice
devil's words

@

we are born in a machine we don't understand
to live in a world we don't recognize

i'm afraid

the feeling is that my feet is slippery and the floor is muddy
there's nothing to grab on no branches, no rocks, nothing
and the water is too deep

only if i could fly

i'm having dreams where i don't stop falling and it's endless until my mind can't take it anymore and i wake up