Jesus. I'm not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they're gonna do. I'm just going to do it. Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia."

"Huh?" I asked.

"You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."

"that girl with pearls in her hair
calling me,
was i dreaming or was that true?
She waits for me behind her pearls
Between the sky and the earth"

when the devil couldn't reach me so instead he gave me a mind that is incredibly fixated on things to the point where i don't even understand myself

mathematics cooked me so much, I'm just finding probabilities of almost every events just to make sure things don't derail.

if you guys wanna share songs with me with some subtext... then do it under the reciept of 'suraj'

or, sendthesong.xyz

this is the perfect 4 sides I've found yet

Left two quadrants are all serious and right two look at brighter sider of the life?
While lower 2 as mix can be taken as professional sides, upper two are private/confidential or informal

- smartass flower

rage is what follows right after fear

'घूरना बंद करो, नूर'

the fuzzy/messy hair when you just wake up is so fking hot >>>

lately feeling very euphoric, time to inject arctic monkeys to get in touch with myself

what is enjoying life really? is it working hard, grinding each and every day to prove yourself that you're better than yesterday and keep moving till you reach a satisfactory state where you can literally feel you've achieved everything (which is not possible) but you will still run for the dilemma cause you enioy living it like that, you just wanna become exceptional...

or is it forgetting every goals and target and enjoy each and every seconds with your people, find that crowd and live every day without caring for any money or food or shelter and just fucking live like absurdist? forget every worries and pain and suffering and just go on like you're only gonna live till 28. (which is not possible)

or could be it's just the balance between them.... but reallly????? why I'd wanna work if i have the perfect people with me to live my life? or why would i wanna enjoy when your brain constantly ticks like a time bomb to get back to work because you don't wanna waste a single second?