i need that

i'll play a rigged game to bring myself at the verge of death, just to win it.

i have always wanted control over everything in my life, and i have control.
and when i don't then i just ruin those things, completely.
it's not like i liked being the controller,
id enjoy my life sitting on my couch too. just let the dominos fall wherever they may
but my subconscious will eat me alive.

i'd rather stay frustrated over little things, and have everything under my wings than let others have a say in my life and decide my action.

cause the way my life is,
everything in my life is very organized, from my wardrobe to my workspace and from my folders to my home screen.

i can never let a soul ruin the perfection of what i could achieve.

and i don't do stuffs cause i want somebody to appreciate me for it, i just like doing it.

just had a near death experience,
don't play chess while walking on the road!

i only have a caraxes too

'Weak?
I'm you'

- I know, You're a fucking disappointment.

Best thing you train yourself to get use to is to Stay Silent !

I'm getting into the state of numb

maybe

people with a judging mentality, and with no life whose entire personality is based on their online appearances, always thinks they are better than those who stay in touch with grass.

guys with sisters are lucky

I am a secret that you can never hide

a gesture you can never forget and avoid

“narcissistic”
“egocentric”
“lacking empathy”
“incapable of love”
“self consumed”
“careless”
"selfish"
"prideful"
"inexpressive"

fuckin year worth of human interaction