i stupid almost everyday

has anyone told you about the consequences of half knowledge?

it's bad, just know that much

She's slowly drowning in this pool of her own.
Mixed with all the things they've said and with stuff she's let herself hear.

Blue eyes, wide smile, brown hair, skin fair, small nose and everything else to stare.

Maybe she's insecure
Maybe a little, maybe she's not.

She was never born with Insecurities, she was just told what to be insecure about.

But their words sink deeper in her soul.
They reach deeper than the surface on which she could pull.
They reach deeply into her, slowly opening this void.
A void full of loose ends not to be ever explained.

Summing up to her, all I see is beauty, but the pain she holds in her eyes tell a truly different story.

A story completely different from the ones I've heard.

hm

fuck it, just another usual day in this wonderworld.

Do you want everything to go your way? the way you want it? everything moves according to your wish?
- yes

Can you achieve it "technically"?
- no, but i strive for it.

then why?
- cause i don't fucking want to be even one step lower in this food chain. I'll never accept a command from somebody unless it's helping me in the long run. I can never, never be a slave of others, where they feel superior than me and walk over me, laugh on me.


you know that 'never' doesn't last forever, right?
- i'm aware, but this isn't changing unless somebody humbles me to the hell. i hope somebody does that. but i'm also aware that it's not you.
you can never.

until then, i'll wear this ego as my crown.

i never do anything wrong, you believe me. don't you?

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either the best or nothing at all

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coffee drinker cat