yesterday i got a random vagal malaise while eating dinner

i'm playing smash bros rn

hoowee it's another wall o' text
tldr; i never learned discipline and it's dawning on meee
https://bsky.app/profile/firepal3d.bsky.social/post/3ltywkils5k2c

I have that thing where I wanna cheat discipline and do bigger projects than I am skilled enough to do. imo this is easier to avoid when I like doing what I do. Blender modeling isn't fun to me, but shader programming I've never had an issue with.

Maybe it's because I'm able to control my own expectations when it comes to shaders.
I'll never be able to make an Alyx bottle shader, but I could totally whip up a parallax/raymarching/procedural thing and I *know* I can look for stuff to improve/optimize/add. (and feel like i'm making progress)

[end of wall o' text. expect throwbacks in some time]

I've been having smaller occasional vertigo weirdness (all away from a computer). I'm gonna see a general practitioner in a few days.

brain MRI says i'm good as new hot diggity dawg

i haven't posted but i'm doing shit.
shit is being done as we speak. live

lol i keep forgetting to post here (translation: i am witholding programming stuff because of my self-perception as a 3D artist)

woke up with a cough headache today, wonder if it was the Justice concert i went to a few days ago :/

currently having a spike in blood pressure it seems

remember to exercise and eat healthy

i told myself i wasn't gonna do anymore level design and instead focus on programming...... oops

heart breaking: frep pivots to asset flipping

cw: shaky
racing game but it's from the perspective of the passenger's camcorder

there they go

i forgot to post a bunch of stuff here (as usual)

i've been having what i think is health anxiety on and off for about a week now

i'll share the clips i forgot to put here tomorrow

tracking security camera

help i can't stop toying with this prototype's camera tracking systems

i found a "revving truck" sound effect on freesound and the result is not bad

this weird uv map is metalheartcore

but, i rolled my own flakes

lap