Knowing that success is illusion

As a kid I used to think life
Is moving so slow, I watch it go by
Look out the window on my bus ride
I thought the world was so small, through my closed eyes
I've always tried to control things
In the end that's what controls me
Maybe that's why I'm controllin'?

The older I get, I feel like I'm always tryna save time
Talkin' to the voices in my head, they make me think twice
Tellin' me it doesn't mean it's wrong because it feels right.

Feelz 😂

Shet

Fuck u vvr

Ironically.

It's time someone realises.

I've always been a guy who'll correct himself before reaching someone else's mistakes. My attitude speaks of itself.
I have always been responsible for my own mistakes, never blamed anyone, be it circumstances, my mood or anything else. I left acting on impulse ages ago. I remember old days when VVR taught me not to care enough about people who don't matter to you. It creates a protective shell for you. You can choose who can harm you and who cannot. Hence, if I'm vulnerable around you, it's by choice. And my choices may persistent ups and downs but it takes very little effort to undo them, you know it 😉

Other thing we both guys have faced at some point is space abuse. If I give you a safe place to vent, rant and talk freely, you gotta make sure not to abuse it. You have a room, it's your job to keep it clean, you're solely responsible for it. If you misuse it, trying to be a mean bitch, I won't care less. I don't expect you to give me as much of comfort as I offer, but if you have the audacity to use the comfort, be answerable to your actions.

There are things that affect me as well. I face two choices whenever I'm affected.
1. Pain
2. Anger
If I'm always choosing the former, that means you mean something to me. Again, try to abuse it and you'll know the latter. If I'm there to take a bullet for you, don't take it for granted.

Don't try to be someone you're not, atleast with me.

And remember, if he taught me how to care, he also taught me how to detach. My trust walls may withstand several storms and wars, but try to poke it intentionally, might result in a crack, a void that can never be filled again.

As quick as you fly is as quick as you can fall. Don't fuck with that at all.

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This is my personal space, I got nowhere else to rant so...

I gotta try tho

You can't be everything to everybody
I wanna be your lover, your best friend
Your Batman, Spider-Man
Fighter pilot shooting down your rivals and
I wanna damn near kill you to be the one that heal you up
I wanna be the one that feel you up
On nights when you need good hug to cheer you up
I wanna be the one to build you up
A wall worth five billion bucks to keep out the rah-rah
And the blah-blah-blah so nobody try to steal your thunder
Pull you under
Toss my hopes out, Royal Rumble
We done moved out to the boondocks
Built a big house, there he wonders
How somewhere along the way
I been so disconnected, my perspective is ignorant
Dangerous when it's nobody to check you
I be havin' to check myself