Make that make sense oh my god

Mfs be pressing my buttons then get defensive when I fight back like maybe don’t trigger or irritate me😭😭

𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝟏𝟏𝐭𝐡, 𝟐𝟎𝟎𝟕

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
“I never saw the danger. It’s such a long life. I was sure there’d be time for us again, but then you were gone, and time seemed finite again.”

“Everything stays, but it still changes. Ever so slightly, day and nightly, in little ways.”

“Life is lonely and unlikely, so take my hand and we’ll be fine, together see the world anew and watch as the stars align.”
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

*taps mic* ehem… check check… is this thing on… AH YES OKAY GREAT well hello there Arnika and Arnika only anyone else reading this okay you wouldn’t know this is between meeeee and herrrr anywaySSSSS BACK TO YOU AGAIN ARNIKA, I see you’re… *puts glasses on to check date* nineteen holyfuckingshit you fucking unc ohmygod white strands of hair start growing yet old man?? HOLY SHIT YOURE ALMOST 20 IM SO SCARED HEBDNEHEHHEHEH HHAAAPPPPYYY BIIRTHDAYYYYY!1!1!1!2! 🎉

I’m not the best with words I think you already know that by now but I had to scramble up my limited vocabulary of expressing my emotions for this one so bare with me I’m so cringe and such a fucking chud I’m gonna kms okay don’t judge me I’m trying my best okay I’m so embarrassed

But if I really had to sum up the emotions I have when I think of you and this moment in specific I guess is… gratitude? Like I’m not sure how to word it but it’s just being thankful I guess? Thankful I have such a splendid, kind hearted, sweet and beautiful person in my life. I know I say things wrong sometimes and I know I do things oddly or also again wrong sometimes and I know I’m not the easiest person to کنار اومدن باهاش but I’m glad you’ve kinda dealt with all my bs and you’ve been understanding and so amazing and I really think that’s what I’d use to explain you as a person if anyone ever asked me to explain you to them: understanding. So compassionate about everything and maybe has a heart bigger than what she can handle but I wouldn’t see that as a flaw… not really. I think we need more of what you have when you see people and it’s compassion. Compassion and empathy and kindness. Idk I honestly feel like crying writing this because I talk to everyone about you and at the same time I can’t even muster up the words to explain how much you mean to me so I hope my silent acts of love have proven that to you. You mean so much to me, and I’d do anything and everything I can to keep you in this world. I really wish you could see yourself the way I see you — through my eyes. Your jokes and humor are out of this world like cmon, you’re outstanding in writing and world building and stories and most importantly you’re literally stunning and gorgeous like what else can I say mfs my wife is a baddie yall r just jealous ANYWHO yeah um I feel embarrassed even writing this so far so I won’t bore you with my horrible attempts at being sappy and flooding my heart in the worst form of communication possible and that’s my shit writing but moral of the story,

You’re so loved Arnika. You’re so, so loved. I know sometimes you think you lack something, or you don’t meet expectations, but… you do. You really, really do. Ask anyone in here and they’ll know. Ask me and I’ll know with certainty. So, if you’re reading this with any tears and I hope you ain’t, then wipe em away and accept this wholeheartedly even for a day.

Happiest of birthdays my dearest dreamer. Don’t give up <3

~ megs or as you know me, pariya

ARNIKA DAY

ARNIKA DAY

ARNIKA DAY

IM THE FIRST PERSON

IM THE FIRST PERSON

JENEHAAYAYAHAYAYAYAY

IM THE FIRSTPERSONNDND

Ohmygod I can sleep peacefully

WHERE IS SHE OHMYGOD