Some of you weren’t randomly hated at 12 for absolutely no reason and it shows.

The summer i turned avoidant

accepting that you’re objectively weird and owning it is infinitely better than being constantly desperate to appear normal to people who don’t even matter to you

How can hurting someone be that easy?

One sentence that looks completely normal to the person saying it, but somehow, when it reaches the other person, it makes everything inside them fall apart.

But what makes it hurt the most isn't always the words themselves.

It's who said them.

The person you trusted.
The person you cared about.
The person you loved.
The person you supported when they needed someone.
The person you thought was one of the reasons you could make it through those difficult days.

You can't hate them.

But you can't love them the same way either.

And somewhere between those two feelings, you get trapped in something that doesn't even have a proper name.

Can you love someone and resent them at the same time?

Can you miss someone while knowing that being close to them is what hurt you?

Can you still care about someone while wishing you had never met them?

You don't just lose a person.

You lose the version of the world you believed existed because of them.

And even if you want to fix everything, somehow you're the one who becomes wrong for trying to understand what you did wrong in the first place.

Maybe I was the only one who believed it was real.

The only one who cared enough to remember the little things.