هواي من أفكار اليمين السياسي تتبع هذا النمط، والناس اللي مكضيها يبجون على المَلَكية العراقية بدون أنْ يتعلمون منها شي همين يمثلون هذا النمط.

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طبيعة الحنين nostalgia هي أنّه يجمّل الماضي بصفته وسيلة للهروب من الحاضر السيء

Everyone should be able to look back in their memory and be sure he had a mother who loved him, all of him; even his piss and shit. He should be sure his mother loved him just for being himself; not for what he could do. Otherwise he feels he has no right to exist. He feels he should never have been born.

No matter what happens to this person in life, no matter how much he gets hurt, he can always look back to this and feel that he is lovable. He can love himself and he cannot be broken. If he can’t fall back on this, he can be broken.

You can only be broken if you’re already in pieces. As long as my baby-self has never been loved then I was in pieces. By loving me as a baby, you made me whole.


- Joan, a schizophrenic.
From 'The Divided Self'

Compulsory education
By Briton Rivière

I am quite sure that a good number of ‘cures’ of psychotics consist in the fact that the patient has decided, for one reason or other, once more to play at being sane.

- The Divided Self

خامس مرة*

"Karl Jaspers went a long way to define who are schizophrenics. He said: they are those whom among other things, we cannot understand (Verstehen) humanly so must explain (Erklaren) scientifically."

These three stages in the evolution of psychosis in members of a family occur very commonly: Good - bad - mad.

- The Divided Self

الفكرة هي أنّ لما فرد من العائلة يُصاب بالذهان (هلوسات وأوهام وهالسوالف) فوصف أفراد عائلته للمريض يكون بالعادة: جيد - سيء - مجنون. يعني أفراد العائلة جانوا يعتبروه شخص جيد ولطيف، بس صارت تصرفاته سيئة بعدين، لحدما صارت "مجنونة" :

-  أول مرحلة، تكون شخصيته عادةً ميّالة لإرضاء المقابل وعدم فعل شي يعارض الآخرين. لهذا يوصَف المريض بهاي المرحلة بأنّه طبيعي و "جيد،" خاصةً من قِبل الأهل اللي رح يكولون شي مثل "أبد ما خالفلي أمر" أو "جان دائمًا يسمع الكلام."

- بثاني مرحلة يبدي يتصرف تصرفات تُعتَبَر "سيئة" bad لأنها تخالف توقعات أفراد العائلة عن المريض ومرات تكون بهدف إزعاجهم أو معارضتهم (كأنما يريد يعاندهم—من وجهة نظر العائلة طبعًا—).

- بثالث مرحلة، التصرفات السيئة تتعدى حدود المعقول ويُنظَر لها من قِبل أفراد العائلة على أنها تصرفات مجنونة mad. هنا بالعادة يبدي الذهان.

- When I was catatonic, I tried to be dead and grey and motionless. I thought mother would like that. She could carry me around like a doll.
I felt as though I were in a bottle. I could feel that everything was outside and couldn't touch me.
I had to die to keep from dying. I know that sounds crazy but one time a boy hurt my feelings very much and I wanted to jump in front of a subway. Instead I went a little catatonic so I wouldn't feel anything.

- I guess you had to die emotionally or your feelings would have killed you.

- That's right. I guess I'd rather kill myself than harm somebody else.

(The Divided Self)

Take a look at the life of James, a chemist, aged 28.
The complaint he made all along was that he could not become a ‘person’. He had ‘no self’. ‘I am only a response to other people, I have no identity of my own.’ He felt he was becoming more and more ‘a
mythical person’. He felt he had no weight, no substance of his own. ‘I am only a cork floating on the ocean.’
This man was very concerned about not having become a person: he reproached his mother for this failure. ‘I was merely her emblem. She never recognized my identity.’ In contrast to his own belittlement of and uncertainty about himself, he was always on the brink of being overawed and crushed by the formidable reality that other people contained. In contrast to his own light weight, uncertainty, and insubstantiality, they were solid, decisive, emphatic, and substantial. He felt that in every way that mattered others were more ‘large scale’ than he was.

At the same time, in practice he was not easily overawed. He used two chief manoeuvres to preserve security. One was an outward compliance with the other. The second was an inner intellectual Medusa’s head he turned on the other, by depleting the other person of his personal aliveness, that is, by seeing him as a piece of machinery rather than as a human being.

- The Divided Self

إستَخدَم جيمس مناورتَين ليحافظ على شعورِه بالأمان. الأولى كانت إذعانًا وامتثالًا ظاهريًا للآخر. والثانية هي أنّه يحملُ—فكريًا—رأسَ ميدوسا¹ ليواجِه به الآخر ويجرّده من صفاته الفردية وحيويته فَيَصير الآخر—وهو إنسانٌ حي—في عَينَيه آلةً وجمادًا بلا روح.

¹ميدوسا هي كائنٌ أسطوري كلُّ مَن ينظر لعينيها يَصير حجرًا (يُجَرَّد من إنسانيته إلى جماد). بعدَ أنْ قطع البطل بيرسيوس رأسَها، إستخدمه سلاحًا ليحجّر أعداءَه.

تذكرت إقتباس ريك اند مورتي اللي يستخدموه الـ edgy teens:
What people calls "love" is just a chemical reaction that compels animals to breed. It hits hard, Morty, then it slowly fades, leaving you stranded in a failing marriage.

Rick here is using the same "Medusa's head" as the schizophrenic patient. He's rationalizing away the human aspect out of love and creating the false sense of wisdom and the false conviction that he knows what he's talking about.

This is one of the problems with very intelligent people: they externalize their shortcomings and make them look like flaws in the design of the universe. In the world of TV, you can see it with Rick, House, and Chuck (from Better Call Saul). It's also evident in Crime and Punishment's protagonist, and Ivan from Brothers Karamazov.