future days may come alone. cold as winter, gold as fall. take my hand and make it yours. of what are you staying because? try and sometimes you’ll succeed. for you i sing, for you i split, for this imaginary world. take my heart and make it work. you’re all my stolen missing parts, i have no need for anyone. anyone but them and you. with you i don’t feel so obscure. my body burns at single touches. without you i feel too much. a stranger’s hands, their lips on me. i feel disgusting and surreal. and always i run back to you, where i feel seen, i feel secure. future days may come all bright. and together we’re alright. my sinful heart becomes so pure. our future days, of me and you.

09.10.2025.

don’t make me cry, baby, don’t push your luck. i’m just a warm throat for you to fuck. i’m just a fresh wall for you to paint. feel like a sinner, but you ain’t saint.

no pretty woman so i’ll kiss your lips. sometimes you tear me from limb to limb. you are a mystery, your soul is new. and i’ll survive what i can’t endure.

come prove me wrong, baby, don’t turn away. i won’t let go, i can beg you to stay. love me from pity, i do not care. my masks are pretty so them i wear.

29.10.2025.

a gaping hole inside my neck. without you i’m a nervous wreck. you have a sabre, you are no prince. it isn’t anything like what it seems.

the tangerine looks so nice to eat. but you don’t want what’s inside of it. it has the brightest and nicest peeling, but you don’t want to know that feeling.

outside we’re different, but same inside. i can’t decide, no i can’t decide. you are so close and so far away. what will you bring us, tomorrow day?

30.10.2025.

do you just know how to
erase me
people say i’m sick and crazy
even if it’s how i love
never thought you could
do this to me
everyone can see
nobody can help
crying in my bed
you’re my love.

08.11.2025.

a love so tough it makes me cry
do i require your desire?
every day i feel so blue
love is important, love is new
enough with tears

home is my prison
unfortunately i crave you
get back to me, my lovely season
one day‘s forever? wish i knew

09.11.2025.

скалы покрыты снегом,
ели на них черны.
радость подкатит к горлу.
атомы расщепляются.
фонари зажигаются,
и я закрываю глаза.
муки мои закончатся,
а твои не начнутся.

28.11.2025.

i say your name, your name is mine. you are so rough yet so divine. i like your charm, your doting eyes. you are my idol. no surprise. thou love thy neighbour, my love is yours. you’re my religion, you’re mine because i’m truly yours. and in this world you are my rose, you are my sword.
you are my light, you’ve hanged the stars. your life’s a fight, you play guitar in the same way you play my heart, forever happy and yet apart. you are so beautiful, magnetic, without you i go ascetic. you are so broken yet you’re holy. i say your name, your name is

****.

29.11.2025.

romanticising every stranger, i create stories in my head. forget mistakes, forget the danger, when you are on me in my bed. i keep on calling you my saviour, i keep desiring your sweet love. and even if i am a failure, bring love to me, the lord above. i write stupid romantic poems in languages all known to me. my heart’s a tart, my bones are ruins of all the temples people’ve seen. men want, desire, but do they love me? that is the question. be or not. вопрос, как имя твое давний, вопрос древнейший, как твой род.

20.12.2025.