i’ll never bite your feeding hand, i’ll never kiss another man, i’ll always let you take control if you will hold me and go on. i’m like a siren so i sing, my nerves become the tightest strings and i feel jealous, i feel new, when all i think about is you. i see you when i close my eyes, i’ll peel my skin down, my disguise will fall unlike the kingdom come and from your chains i’ll never run. my collar is virginal white, i wish for you to hold me tight, i wish for you to hold me close, i wish to breathe you through my nose, i wish to breathe you in my lungs, i want to speak with you in tongues, i want to speak with you in bed, i want to meet your every friend. i wish for you to be with me, i want you to stay here and see, see what i am and what i ain’t. and there’ll be love, all right and saint.

27.06.2025.

you.

my every move now has a meaning and it’s all devastatingly pure. i hear my heart, i hear it screaming: you. i hear it weeping, feel it burning, i feel it hurting. immature? i’m like a child, who’s always waiting. for you. i am dependent, i am trusting, и я приманку съем твою. i’m like a dog, who’s never barking at you. the sky is crying when you’re not here, all of my bruises are turning blue. a needy poet, and what i need’s you. i am in love, i beg to spare me, i wish i knew just what to do. i wish you knew just how to bear me. you.

30.06.2025.

in my sketchbook your face i sketch, for you i twist, for you i stretch, and only you can calm the ache. you’re my h.h., you’re my h.h.
you see my spring, i bloom for you. my mouth produces the sweetest dew. your body is completely new. you are my cure, you are my cure.
you call me lo and make me smile, you are persistent yet you’re sly. and you make my desire thrive. and as i’m yours, you’re only mine.
i have the eyes of a baby deer. you can calm down my every fear. and through the storm, you’d carry me. you’re my d.d., you’re my d.d.

13.07.2025.