This whole shitshow is just begging for wizards and warlords to rise.

When they burn their own society down, those who rise will be very unique interesting powerful individuals.

Like a Phoenix.

I decided to not take it.

Not because no disagree with the science,

But because I believe people need to be reminded that they have a choice.

This is a most glorious time of our species.

It's polarizing people who thought they could focus on their own lives.

It's solidifying the elites' power.

It's scaring people with crypto's potential.

It's forcing people to try to wake up to narrative warfare.

It's inspiring us all to paint a glorious vision of tomorrow to move towards, lest we sink into their pessimism on the virus and climate change.

Stand strong, anon.

I have to admit, I've been holding back on my posts here.

I have more in my mind which should be expressed, but I don't want to be judged.

A beautiful message from my pal Chance.

Turned up or turned off.

That’s how I’d describe my behavioral tendencies, and also my experience of the world as felt by my body -I’m talking cognitive and visceral, ya dig?- in an all or nothing frenzy of experience and being experienced. I keep searching for God everywhere to test whether this God founded by my forefathers within me that I might ascend into the eternally growing Kingdom of Heaven, or any God so conceived and so dedicated who have already long endured, can move mountains if I lend my faith and my strength into his hands and my life be unto his vessel. I keep finding God any and every place I look, and I keep expecting not to.

Obsession comes in waves of fire that burn distractions into ash.
Obsession paints with single hairs in broad strokes.
Obsession dives deep and forgets it must return to the surface if it is to survive.
Obsession is the means by which you test the limits of a truth you do not want to trust.
Obsession means you burn away the shadow that you might catch a glimpse of what is real.
Obsession means you lose a finger when the rabbit hole turns out to be a badger’s den.

I learned to keep God in my mind and in my heart so that he might live in my hands as well.

If you’ve ever burned yourself to the ground; if you’ve ever actually reached a point where you lost the capacity to continue -failed without quitting- then you’ve learned that your limits were much further down the road than your mind’s eye was able to see. I learned that a laser beam focus can be applied for shorter periods and then an habitual but purposeful short digression into another fascination helped to curb the obsession. Break it down before it breaks you down, daddy-o. Ask me how I learned this.

One day I ran until I met the end of my span. I vomited as I fell to the ground, and the blackness was fuzz in my eyes closing in while the air wouldn’t move for my lungs wouldn’t heave and I thought I could die as the world swam in colors of brown and green as my face pressed into the soil. Then I breathed again, and I turned over, and the sky was a mass of geometries in impossible synesthetic mathematic colors and the heaving fractal inside the breath of existence rippled through my world in a pulsing display of the acoustics of creation.

I’m gonna tell you a secret. People try to read between the lines, especially when they’re confused. Take a leap with me, we’re circling on memeplex. How can you narrate a conglomeration of narratives other than to let them play as they may? I’m writing to people who take the leap, intuitive leap, I know I am thus I have this speech. I sometimes question, I sometimes preach, and sometimes I test then and sometimes beseech.

My method is to turn a mirror towards the light that you’re already shining, so that you can see where it is. If you can see where it is, then you can see what feeds it and what feeds upon it.

I’m learning with you.

Cheers

"Because nobody tells me what to do" is the only acceptable answer.

On the Bullshit of Internet Machiavellians:

Lots of people on social media like to talk a big game about Machiavellianism, manipulation, power games, and the like. They do it to feel important.

How many actually are basing their analyses on real world situations? How many are larping?

One of my best friends is an orthopedic surgeon, my age (mid 30s), ambitious, and learning how to play the game. He's not giddy about it, he's kind of sad because he wishes it was all about the medicine.

But alas it's not. And he got into this career partly for the money.

A given spine surgery procedure may get billed at $120,000. Medicare may pay the surgeon $2,000 for it, and private insurance like Blue Cross may pay $6,000 for it. But if the claim comes through Workman's Compensation Insurance (getting injured on the job), it may get paid at $20,000. If it goes through a car insurance company and the victim has a high PIP, it may get billed at $80,000.

So the low end surgeons, who have no relationship with the workers comp companies (experienced surgeons will say no to more surgeries, but get more deal flow funneled to them at higher rates) may personally get $300,000 per year in salary. The surgeons who are experienced partners in their early 40s may pull $2,000,000 per year by being buddies with insurance companies. Academics who do complex surgeries but refuse to play the game may make a stable $800,000/year. Those with special relationships with "out of network" patients (where wealthy patients pay out of pocket like 50% of $120,000-$500,000 surgeries) can pull $5,000,000 per year in their mid 40s.

It's sad because it's not about medicine - the care is often the same for the patient and the doctors are often equally skilled. But the wealthier doctors learned to game the system better by intelligently choosing which patients to see.

Now to bring it back home, I have a real disdain for the autistic sounding self-proclaimed Machiavellians who think they got the world figured out but don't actually know the nuts and bolts of what happens in real life.

My actual friends are legit ambitious and learning the games to be played. They're not self employed; they're trying to play the system. And good for them.

Don't make broad pronouncements without real world experience, and actually put numbers to what you talk about!

Until next time, later.

LIVING TRUTHFULLY

just be who you are - any act or facade eventually gets found out - and you will suffer mental dissonance in the meantime

What are those things that constantly come to mind but you are too scared to express? They must eventually be uttered into the world, lest they fester in the halls of your mind and become toxic.

honestly expressing your thoughts leads to more magic in every situation - even if it is tough to say. ESPECIALLY when its tough to say.

A Fun experiment: for one whole week - if it’s in your head, it has to come out your mouth
You will be shocked at how much you’ve made a habit of suppressing what you actually think

Two people can interact, both putting up a facade that they believe the other person will like more.
It’s a fake performance because neither are secure in just being themselves.
Rather than letting go of the idea of who they think they should be, they cling to an idea of what they think is cool or acceptable.
The result is that neither person interacts with their true selves, and misses out on true connection

It is HARDER to put on the act, to carefully measure your words than it is to speak from the heart.
Literally it requires more energy to constantly monitor what you are saying, worrying about ramifications or social standing if you say this instead of that and so forth.

Some people will reject this and say “ahhh I can’t say what I want because XYZ”
Then maybe you should look at the circumstances of your life that are ‘forcing’ this.
Over time, constantly living life limited in this way has negative ramifications for the soul.

There of course is a level of social decorum that we must exhibit in our community - being honest does not mean talking shit about people. If you don’t have something nice to say about someone, don’t say it. But withholding your truth, your passions and your interests or your personality because of any reason ends up decaying our spiritual selves inside, and is unsustainable long term.

Perfect health is impossible unless your actions are aligned with your thoughts
The honest man eating dog food is healthier than the liar having wheatgrass shots.

Sometimes I purposefully wait to see how much pressure the clients put on me for results, in order to gather information about the relative power dynamics.

Not exactly the most ethical approach, since I ideally should just plow ahead for them. I should just build great things for them as fast as I can do we all win. That's the kumbaya we're in this together approach.

But I'm thinking long term strategy here. I need to know how much leverage I have over them, and how much leverage they have over me in terms of my business's cashflow.

They can pull the plug at any moment and fuck me over. I need to know which clients are closest to doing that.

I want to know where their breaking point is. I want to know when they'll turn into the frantic urgent professional who starts trying to pressure me.

You know the type. Always rushed, always panicked, never seem to get ahead, but always seem to be successful.

Those people are not powerful.

Because once I pull back yet still charge them, then I'll know how much pressure they have on them from their overlords for results.

It's, in a way, milking the client. I understand the ethical issues with me being a slimey git and trying to play little games. I don't want to lose integrity and be a nasty snake. That's why every week, I always show some significant progress with the medical AI results for them.

And maybe my language is not the kindest, but honestly I need to know where the pressure points are in my business. This is crucial for me to know who's gonna be a frantic pain in the ass. They play games with me, albeit subconsciously - I'm just better at playing the games intentionally.

I'm starting to care less and less about what's happening in society.

I made my choice, I've stated my views,

Now I build.

One of the biggest weapon the mainstream news (not the extremist stations like MSNBC or Fox, but the middle of the road stations) has is their tone.

It's very matter-of-fact.

It sounds very professional.

It's often smug.

It's calmly stated as if it's the only way to think.

It's just shy of condescending.

It's manipulative.

Example:

"What will the effect of private businesses fighting the vaccine mandates have on turning the tide on fighting COVID?"

Lotsa assumptions built in there, and the tone it's stated with is like, "hmm, what do we do to address this low-brow issue blocking our group fight?"

"What will the world look like if there are some who get vaccinated and some who refuse? Those of us who get vaccinated and get our boosters, will we be able to work and play like we used to?"

The sad little boy wondering why the big bad "hesitants" won't let him to out to play.

"But not everyone agrees - the WHO believes the rest of the world should get their first vax shots before the US gets their boosters."

Already assuming boosters are needed, it's just when.

A 10-sec clip of a single protestor holding a sign "End the Tyranny!" but no commentary.

Learn how to be a shining light to the world by just walking your own path.

Society will beckon with its luxuries.

Even living a life in nature may not be your path - don't swing the pendulum the other way if that's not your path

It's a narrow road, but the only one worth it.

Don't be someone who discusses society all day.

Have your own things going on.

It's okay if you forget to check in with the world for a week - despite what you hear on Twitter, it's not all collapsing.

We're in the midst of a great change as minds connect. And change is scary.

I know I know, all your favorite accounts are discussing food shortages (same song and dance since March 2020), inflation (it's coming soon! I swear!), civil war (blood is nigh!), and a thousand other things.

Maybe those things will happen. But YOU will adapt and be fine. Chill

I'm not denying this stuff may be on the horizon.

The signs are there and smart people are predicting them.

But it's always right around the corner, and it's not helping you to be an obsessed prepper.

How many people are boosting their ego, sounding important sharing warnings?

Is this what's going to get you in the best mental state to handle reality? Forget what's on the internet - is this what your actual eyes and ears are saying?

Again, I'm not against being prepared. But how many people are making this their identity? They want this to happen now.

War is coming.

This may be true.

I'm no denier.

But come on, be more than one dimensional.

Getting sucked into an amygdala based response is not making you your best self. And isn't that what this change is all about? Finding your peak?

Rise and be untouched by circumstance.

Practicing Presence:

I lie in bed ready to fall asleep. The dim hum of the air conditioner vibrates my eardrums. The light glow from the kitchen ignites my rods and cones in my eye. I feel the soft bedsheets beneath me. Thoughts from the day race through my mind.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

I notice a small tightness in my lower back, and close my eyes. The air conditioner still hums, the thoughts change to thinking about tomorrow, the sheets become ignored by my touch senses.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

The tension dissolves and I feel my heartbeat. The air conditioner is background noise and I start paying attention to other sensations within my body. My thoughts start flowing, and questions pop into my mind wondering if this is what the Buddhists call bodyscan meditation.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

I notice my breathing, and bright visions of a sunny day enter my mind. I hear the sound of crickets outside vibrating my eardrums, and my body shifts a bit, subtly changing the pressure on my legs. I feel sensations in my calves and my mouth tastes the aftereffects of the toothpaste.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

I feel the pillow on my ear, and I start planning out how I will type up this very telegram post you're reading. I wonder if that'll break my presence, but realize there's always a new present moment to experience.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

I feel a pain in my left temple from within, and drill down into that pain until it dissolves. I feel like a healer. My breathing slows and I hear the air conditioner click off, only leaving the slight buzzing sound from the blood flowing through my brain that you only hear when it's completely silent. My ear itches.

This is my new Now.

A nanosecond passes.

I try to make an unbroken, contiguous experience of nanoseconds, observing each sensation rise and fall.

This is my new Now.

Do you ever just marvel at it?

The fact that your words are flowing through pipes connecting the entire giant Earth.

In milliseconds connecting your ideas to people across this ginormous planet.

Enormous, fast pipes, synergizing you with people looking at a different sky...

Apparently I can do live streams via telegram? Will have to try that out sometime.

And will try to post more video messages too, people seem to like those.

The most important piece of not rushing is to solidify the proper neural circuits.

When you start something new, the instinct is to just get it done. Nobody likes the painful slow repetition of mistakes.

But that's how you correct your form.

Myelinate the best neural circuits.

The brain looks for efficiency - evolutionarily we're wired to conserve calories.

That's why myelination occurs: to make a sense of muscle memory or habit for repeated neural circuits firing.

So when you rush and repeat that, it tries to make your shitty process more efficient.

When you're learning a new instrument, or starting a new hobby, or learning a new skill, it's painful to actually learn the proper techniques.

It seems faster to just do what feels natural. But that's just because there are similar neural circuits already myelinated.

It's weak.

Going slowly seems difficult.

Repeating that part of the song you can't get right seems frustrating. You just want to fly through it.

Same with code or lifting or anything.

But that's how you correct which neural circuits get myelinated.

Go slowly, then you'll fly as a master!