Or maybe we’ll always stay behind the bars of that prison while decorating it to feel cozier ,pretending that it was our choice to create the prison from the beginning?

And maybe we had the key all along but didn’t choose or had the courage to walk out of it as they say.

While in reality none of us even thought of creating the prison because it was always there ,we were going to end up there no matter what and if not in the current one it would be in another. In other words no one chooses to lock themselves up we’re always forced to then brainwashed to think that we always wanted this and it’s our fault somehow and when it comes to getting back out there we can’t decide it cause the door will be open when we’re ready to walk out and what follows is in our hands .

When you feel like doing or saying something go for it unless it hurts someone else.

Confessions are hard when they come from deep ,longtime thinking or when they’re real.

Letting go of someone you loved for a long time is leaving a part of your soul behind.

Come to think of it ,it wasn’t all bad at least i had all the feelings ,fantasies and love for myself and that felt warm even if it was one sided all along.

It’s scary to feel like you need to put yourself back there not sure if you should wait more to be sure it’s all over but really it’s never over ,it’ll be memorable forever the feeling with it will change tho.

In order to make it easier just step outside knowing everything would be possible so no need to over analyze it and what’s important is not to waste something present with a dying memory you’re fooling yourself it’s still alive.

Waiting for a long time to get anything,makes you impatient not otherwise.

I really appreciate the people in my life but i can’t show it enough when i’m down so you just need to be sure that if i’m not with you now it’s not because I don’t to be.

They keep saying what if anything changes in the future?

I don’t want it to ,that was my final decision i wasn’t lying when i said it but i’ll be lying if i say i hadn’t thought of it its lingering there between my thoughts but i’m sure of my decision and this was how i wanted it to be over for good.

When i get over something i’ll never be into it again .

I really want to try again with someone who’s worth it ,because i realized not winning once doesn’t mean i’d always lose.

It’s okay to feel sad and embrace everything ,to get pathetic and let it show all over your face.

At least it’s better then ending up numb or fall out sick all the time due to letting it build up inside of you.

That moment might be engraved to my memory it was like if everything stopped that was the same moment i knew i was about to get hit by a train.

6.9.2023
8:00 am

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