#HonestaMessage
what happened
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@HonestaBot

i wish i knew, it just started hurting an hour ago

like pain keeps shooting up to it and stuff

guys how do u not feel crushed by the weight of existing

i like indulging in stupid things bcs smart things make me feel more depressed than i already am but no one wants to hear about the stupid things and there was one person who listened to all my stupid shit and i listened to theirs and we dont talk anymore bcs i annoyed them too much and i keep trying to not think about them but i do and i end up crying bcs wtf

i just loved them,,, so much.
i loved them more than anything and i was ready to give them everything possible to just see them smile and like
and i hate that im not even half mad at them. i keep cursing them but im truly not mad at them bcs im glad they found friends their own age that make them happier

maybe on a deep personal level i believe i don’t deserve any good things hmmm

in french, when we wanna say we miss someone we say that person is missing from us
and ever since we last talked, they are missing from me. a big chunk of my heart is gone and that void kills me whenever i think about it

i think its bcs im gay like this is the eternal fire

i will block anyone, delete notification and replies to not see them too. aint no way YOU ruin MY day on my own phone

I'm so tired of English, learning French asp bcs i cant stand thinking in English anymore

je suis tired of this shit

hello

ok then i will