ocd is one of the most misunderstood mental illnesses out there, and the general public’s interest in keeping it that way is crazy. i’m not being difficult when i’m telling you stop making ocd = cleaning, ocd = color coordination jokes and assumptions. i’m being genuine.

how many of you guys know what magical thinking in ocd is? how many know of modern rituals, like obsessively checking social media? how many even have ocd and don’t have a clue about it?

“Simply wanting a clean kitchen does not mean a person has OCD. What makes it OCD is when the person can’t leave the house without wiping down the countertops once, twice, three more times, because they’re afraid of what will happen if they don’t. When they can’t do a task without repeating a particular prayer or mantra. When the thought of a disorganized kitchen isn’t just annoying; it causes actual distress and extreme anxiety. And OCD extends far beyond a stereotypical concern with cleanliness. Some people with OCD experience upsetting, intrusive thoughts, such as envisioning themselves hurting a loved one.”

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“Some people I knew made me feel weird about not knowing something, so I became obsessed with trying to know as much as I can, whether it is a political thing or about someone from high school being engaged,” Anna says. “Part of it is being afraid of looking stupid and having social anxiety as well.”

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this happened to me in the early stages of my teenage-hood. the way my ‘friend’ who was older treated me has forever changed my brain. but if i say i fucking hate her and hope she dies i’m the bad guy. i hope bad things keeps happening to her and i hope everything nice in her life is temporary. i do not care about peace and forgiveness cause forgiveness isn’t going to fix my brain, she fucked up my brain. i hope she rots in hell and forever at that too.

i keep trying to move on and i do, and i’m proud of myself for whatever i’ve done but i swear to god i can never forgive and forget this one. it’s like asking someone to forgive a guy who looked into their eyes and cut off their leg. it’s not a nice weight i have to carry but it’s impossible to leave the weight behind.

this is why i don’t hang out with minors even though i’m not even 20 yet, i could have such a big influence over the life of a young impressionable kid and i can’t live with that. on my twitter and etc, i always distance myself from people under 17, even under 18. i’m an adult, i can curate my digital space and i will.

also i hope all the women who engage and laugh uncritically at this shit find the light one day cause y’all are embarrassing all of us every day. like every damn day i see a girl coming online to defend a nasty guy’s objectively wrong opinion and it’s getting hard to ignore. also grown ass man using “:)))” passive aggressively, jesus send the flood immediately.

there’s a channel on this app w like around 4k members and i know most of them are women (women who willingly send this man naked photos of themselves btw 😟) and he has never made one single good point about anything. idgaf you’re studying med in a 4th tier university, use empathy for one day.

thank god for the lovely gift of being a hater on the internet.

pleek i just remembered this hot take

it's so stupid cause i love myself soooo much it's just thru the eyes of others that i start to dislike what i see

i want to fucking kill myself

wow i’m so glad this isn’t twitter and i don’t have to censor words and shake in fear like wtf is up with that app

top 10 moments before making the worst decision in life

i miss my friends. i miss having the capacity to actually have conversations and not fucking want to punch myself repeatedly over everything i say.