I was feeling insecure, you might not love me anymore, I didn’t mean to hurt you, I’m just a jealous guy

my ancestors who had to visit neighbors to listen to music are smiling down on me

to lead a better life, i need my love to be here

for my next trick i will be in the wind, in the water, nobody’s son and nobody’s daughter

wings at the speed of sound (1976) would be a beautiful name for a babygirl

unfortunately i've done the hard work of moving on and it's changed me as a person

my dissatisfaction with myself is really ruining the vibes

worst person you know uses children’s gifs and babytalks unprovoked

I am so goddamn strange it’s actually very unbelievable

and it’s shameful to be told this or for someone to point it out but i dont think its mean or atleast i shouldn’t take it as mean. it’s actually nice of people to want to help i think. i just feel so ashamed to realize ive lived two decades doing something extremely strange and out of touch with reality / social etiquettes and I haven’t realized it until someone points it out.

I am trying my hardest to become a real human being because I know in approximately one or two years all the “charm” I have for my strange and offputting traits and behaviors will wear off and my youth won’t be a novelty guarding me anymore so I’m trying to fucking reign it in and become an independent real person but I do wonder sometimes if I’m actually chronically ill and whats wrong with me is not in fact high functioning autism but much more middle or even low functioning and not maskable, which is nothing bad ofcourse but it does make everything about myself and my life more scary and harder to navigate

people can say they have autism too (and have it too actually) but not be ready for the person you become when you unmask. it probably wouldn’t be easy talking to myself if i was in their shoes. and times like this you really wonder if a job, living alone, and a social life outside your parents is possible for you with this level of functionality. i can do stuff on my own but am i doing any of them right?

sorry for sharing my neurological problems lol do you think im still cool and mysterious

how strange it is to be anything at all

i just have to get through this months and the next one and the 6 months after that

I can’t keep updating my ios and losing battery life i’m like 21st century sisyphus in this bitch

me and the bad bitch i pulled by dressing like her grandfather

I coc on her teau until we make twins

what is going on over there

watching the entire world get worse and worse daily is so fun lol. like its over isnt it