i am always trying to communicate something impossible to communicate to people i don’t really care about but the the coldness of solitude is so bone chilling it terrifies me and then i ignore and forget the people i do care about because i don’t want rejection and i don’t want to depend on anyone for anything. disappointment is second nature at this point so let it be in myself and not others. fag in the picture unrelated

i am fine with my love and trust in people when it’s broken and misused but i struggle to act on any love that might be reciprocated

jk rowling being pro trump 😭😭😭 DAWG look at my radical feminists

clairo type of saturday

goodnight

its snowing so it’s the perfect time to just sleep and sleep and sleep

2 year plan:

if economy gets better, move to europe and become a silversmith
if economy gets worse, kill self
if scared to kill self, start a podcast about rock music history

reading up on how iraj mirza went back in the closet because he wanted to be a true patriot

is everyone dumb as rocks

vienna waits for you but for me its actually taksim square, istanbul

i wish i could sleep off being mentally ill

travis kelce LOSER forever and ever amen

me and the beautiful lesbian i pulled by being autistic and emotionally unavailable

guysssssssss when will the sense of dread enddddd

oh my fucking god i need to stop being suicidal

maybe my next hyperfixation will be finding god

i have a stalker on twitter that has my notifs turned on its so awesome

haven’t left the house in any meaningful way in a week

out in the world rn and i forgot my fucking cigarettes like whats the point even

when the snapp driver is talking about the traffic but im listening to ABBA’s discography so i just smile and nod