به پاندا هم رحم نکردید

i'm in pain
everything in my life is painful
my whole being is pain
i live in pain
i am pain

P A I N

i don't even know what's the meaning of " joy "

cuz i never felt that i never experienced that and i might never feel that

i don't even know why i wake up everyday so motivated to study, read some books, do my fav stuff and all
when it's so fake my motivation is fake my smiles and laughs are fake
and then i can't even do the things i like and enjoy this life i have

اوسی‌دی‌ده شدم

nothing can make me angry like hearing someone says پیش فعال

i feel so bad ( like always )

send me some songs guys

i feel like my person doesn't exist and i'm not a good person either

i envy those who don't have social anxiety

uh