Happy 2nd mansiversary, love. Dua bulan memang belum bisa disebut perjalanan yang panjang, tapi cukup untuk membuatku sadar bahwa hubungan ini sudah menjadi bagian yang berarti dalam hidupku. Ada banyak hal yang kita lalui dalam waktu sesingkat ini, dari percakapan sederhana, tawa, rindu, sampai beberapa perbedaan yang membuat kita belajar memahami satu sama lain.

Aku tahu hubungan kita tidak akan selalu berjalan sempurna. Akan ada hari ketika kita berbeda pendapat, salah memahami, atau mungkin sama-sama lelah. Tapi aku berharap, di setiap keadaan itu, kita tetap memilih untuk bicara, memperbaiki, dan tidak mudah menyerah pada apa yang sudah kita bangun bersama.

Terima kasih sudah hadir dan bertahan sampai hari ini. Terima kasih untuk perhatian, waktu, kesabaran, dan semua hal kecil yang kamu berikan selama dua bulan ini. Mungkin tidak semuanya selalu aku ungkapkan, tapi aku menghargai setiap usaha yang kamu lakukan dan setiap waktu yang kamu pilih untuk dibagi bersamaku.

Di bulan kedua ini, aku tidak ingin membuat terlalu banyak janji tentang sejauh apa kita akan berjalan. Aku hanya ingin kita menjalani semuanya dengan sungguh-sungguh, saling menjaga, dan terus bertumbuh bersama. Semoga dua bulan ini menjadi awal dari banyak bulan berikutnya yang masih bisa kita rayakan bersama. I love you, and I’m still happy that it’s you, Kenji @dunknattchai

Maybe there things i never told you

aku nggak pernah bilang kalau ternyata aku memperhatikan banyak hal kecil tentang kamu. cara kamu cerita ketika lagi excited, cara kamu berubah sedikit lebih diam ketika capek, sampai hal-hal random yang pernah kamu ceritakan dan mungkin kamu sendiri sudah lupa. somehow, without me realizing it, all those little things became something i remember about you.

aku juga nggak pernah bilang kalau kadang aku takut kehilangan apa yang kita punya. bukan karena aku selalu berpikir kita akan berakhir, tapi karena aku sadar manusia dan keadaan bisa berubah kapan saja. mungkin itu kenapa, bahkan ketika kita sedang marah, kecewa, atau sama-sama sulit memahami satu sama lain, selalu ada bagian kecil dalam diriku yang bilang, please, jangan sampai kita selesai hanya karena hari ini sedang sulit.

dan satu hal yang mungkin paling jarang aku bilang, having you in my life means more than you probably know. aku nggak tahu sejauh apa cerita kita nanti, tapi kalau kamu pernah bertanya apakah keberadaanmu berarti buatku, the answer has always been yes. more than i say, more than i show, and probably more than you know.

Two months, and somehow you’ve become more than just someone I talk to every day. You’ve become this quiet part of my life that I naturally reach for when something good happens, when my day feels heavy, or even when there’s nothing important to say at all. I don’t think you realize how much warmth your presence has brought into my ordinary days, but I feel it, more than I know how to explain.

There’s something about us that feels strangely comforting. The way I can miss you even after we just talked, the way your name can change my mood in seconds, the way I’ve slowly memorized little pieces of you without even trying. I know two months isn’t forever, but what I feel with you has never really been about how long. It’s about how deeply you’ve managed to settle into parts of me in such a short time.

And maybe that’s what scares me a little too, how naturally I’ve grown attached to you. How somewhere between our random conversations, late replies, little misunderstandings, laughter, and all those small moments, you became someone I genuinely don’t want to lose. Aku nggak butuh semuanya selalu sempurna. I just want it to stay honest, warm, and ours. I want to keep learning how to love you in ways that actually make you feel loved.

So here we are, two months in, and I still want more of you. Not in a possessive way, but in the softest way possible. More conversations, more memories, more versions of you I haven’t met yet, more ordinary days where somehow having you makes everything feel a little better. I don’t know exactly where this will take us, but if it’s with you, I’d really like to stay and find out.

I don’t know how to explain it without making it sound too dramatic, tapi having you around genuinely makes my days better. I like that I can talk to you about almost anything, dari hal penting sampai random things that don’t even matter. Sometimes you annoy me, sometimes I probably annoy you too, but at the end of the day I still want to tell you things, still want your attention, still want to know how your day went. I guess that’s my favorite part about us, it feels close without always having to be serious.

And I hope we stay like this for a long time. Still laughing at stupid things, still sending random thoughts, still being excited to see each other, and still choosing to talk things out when something feels wrong. I don’t need us to have some perfect love story, I just want something real, something that feels safe and fun at the same time. So yeah, happy mensive to us. I’m really happy I get to have you, and even happier that somehow, out of everyone, I get to call you mine.

Permata, terima kasih karna selalu menemani aku ya? Kalau semisal nanti kamu kehilangan kebahagiaan saat bersamaku, tolong sampai—kan, akan ku rogoh sisa hidupku untuk membuat kamu bahagia. Berbahagialah sebahagia-bahagianya, tentu bersamaku.

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