"thought we were at our lowest, but holy shit it goes lower" ahh country

"these are your best years enjoying it while it lasts"
average look on these so called best years:

chapter 18: not dead yet.

being extremely busy every day makes me mentally stable.

cursed are those who feel oceans but can express just a drop.

If seeking freedom is a sin, I will happily face god and walk back into hell.

"your child only expresses their emotions in english, because they feel uncomfortable verbalizing them in their native language and assuming them as their own."

academic burnout is real. I feel like I'm falling behind while everyone else keeps rising. they're all so good, and I can't seem to catch up. it’s not even about comparison anymore. It just feels like I’m letting myself down. I'm tired. really tired. I lost my goal and my motivation to study or do anything. it's just gone. the worst part is, I do not know how to fix it anymore.

current situation in a nutshell

my relationship with my friends has reached a point where I’m neither their close friend nor just an acquaintance. I’m simply a friend who exists. I feel like I owe them apologies, but I don’t think an apology would make it any better.

the only toxic relationship we approve of in this household.

probably needed a hug, so I slept through all problems.

I'm not socially anxious, just socially selective.

each day I hit a "my bad for assuming everyone has critical thinking skills" moment.

need to sit by the ocean and disassociate for a while.

please don’t mistake my politeness for approval. it’s the only thing stopping me from telling you to go fuck your self.

I don't fw drake, but he once said:

some nights I wish I could go back in life. not to change shit, just to feel a couple things twice.

"I used to cut my hair whenever I wanted a fresh start, as if removing inches could remove memories, as if shorter strands meant reducing the weight of my thoughts on my shoulders. but now I'm letting it grow, learning to carry the past without letting it define me. my hair is growing, and maybe so am I."

my love language is reading your favorite books, watching your favorite movies, listening to your favorite songs, and maybe a little bit of stalking, just to understand you better.

kinda lost right now. kinda stuck up right now. kinda loosing it right now. kinda confused right now. kinda don't know what to do right now. kinda just not ok right now.

mom was right, it was the damn phone.