Honestly I am just starting to be done with life. I keep feeling like it's all pointless and I'm just gonna die soon im ready to die cuz it's all so shitty and so much shit is fucking horrible but then there's the argument that my life is so much better than others or this that and the other

But I really really really want to die

Like fuck everything hurts

And I post here hoping someone can help somehow but I have no clue how anyone could ever help

I just listen to music to try to distract my brain but I still can't focus and apparently I'm not trying hard enough or something

It all just hurts

I want to be pretty

I wish I had bigger boobs or was happier or less hairy and just

It's all Petty shit I guess?

Maybe I'm just a needy bitch?

Maybe it's all fake and I'm just so deluded

Most of my friends are fake anyway apparently or have I just pushed them away?

I can't tell anymore

Is it all just a lie to cry for attention

I don't know anymore

I just want others to be happy
And I want to be happy sometimes

Ok I'm gonna shut up and go to sleep

Love you

This won

Ily