I always strive to make a good first impression. That way, people are even more disappointed when they get to know me.

Started gambling on 1xBet in June 2024. Won ₹1 lakh, then lost over ₹50+ lakhs including savings, credit cards, loans, and even my family’s FDs. Now I'm buried in EMIs (~₹1.5 lakh/month) with no income while doing MTech at NIT. Out of desperation, I even sent a fake death certificate to avoid recovery calls.

📅 Timeline of How My Life Went Downhill
June 2024: The Beginning
Started playing 1xBet casually.

Won ₹1 lakh early on.

Got addicted fast.

Shortly After: The Fall Begins
Lost ₹2 lakh in a single sitting.

I still had ₹4–5 lakh personal savings — lost all of it in one night.

Mid-2024: Debt Spiral
Used credit cards (₹10 lakh total limit) — maxed them all.

Took out loans worth ₹15 lakh from banks and NBFCs.

I avoided CIBIL reporting initially to keep borrowing.

Next 2 Months: Chasing Losses
Lost everything again trying to recover.

Out of panic and obsession, broke family FDs worth ₹30 lakh.

Continued gambling and lost that too.

Feb 2025: Reality Hits Hard
Family found out — but couldn’t help, the amount was too massive.

₹1.5 lakh/month EMIs started piling up.

No income, just doing MTech from NIT.

Harassment and recovery calls started.

Out of desperation, I sent a fake death certificate to stop the calls.

💔 Where I Stand Now
Over ₹50 lakh in debt (loans, credit, FDs lost).

No job, no income, just surviving while doing MTech.

Constant anxiety, shame, and hopelessness.

Lost family’s trust and security.

Legally and ethically in deep trouble due to that death certificate.

🙏 What I’ve Learned (The Hard Way)
Gambling is a trap — it never pays off.

Hiding things and taking on more loans only makes it worse.

Once you lose credibility (financial + personal), it’s very hard to rebuild.

You can't lie your way out of debt. It always catches up.

🔄 What I’m Trying to Do Now
Finish MTech and look for any kind of job.

Thinking of approaching a debt counselor or legal advisor.

Might have to declare insolvency or bankruptcy — still exploring.

Trying to stay alive and sane, one day at a time.

💬 If you're reading this…
If you're even thinking about gambling — just don’t. It’s not worth the pain.

If you're already in the trap — talk to someone. Don’t go deeper. Don’t take more loans. Don’t lie to your family.

Your future matters more than a short thrill.

I miss my dog.
Had her for fifteen years .
She died last year in September.
She had a seizure.i took her to the vet.
She seemed calmer.i went out to check on her in her room around 1am and she was dead.
Seeing her lifeless body broke me.i was going through a lot emotionally when she passed so I couldn't grieve properly.
Every time I think of her my chest hurts and I regret all the times I didn't take a few extra minutes to play with her

I could totally be a motivational speaker... as long as the motivation is to nap more and avoid all responsibility.

I cannot figure out how to word this title better to explain what happened, but bear with me. I'll make it short, I hope.

We're both in our 20s, both women, I'm new-ish to the company and she's not. She's my work bestie, I'm probably not hers but maybe close to it. We get along well and always chat and laugh at work. No idea if she likes women too and I'm not romantically attracted to her, but today made me feel a way I hadn't felt before...

She was in a meeting, I was sitting a couple yards away doing something else. I heard my name get mentioned, and then out of nowhere she just *pulled* my wheelie chair right next to hers so I could wave to the camera. Like, just aggressively but playfully yanked me over while I was in the middle of doing something, and just pointed at the screen. I laughed, waved to the person, and went back to my desk.

Right after it happened, I could not focus anymore. That small interaction gave me butterflies and I felt so giddy. Sure, it was a friendly funny thing, but it felt so?? I don't know how to describe it ughh. Maybe I just yearn to be thrown around by someone, I don't know.

It's been hours since then and I can't stop thinking about it.

Not after advice, it was probably just a playful friendly thing given that we're both girls. I just really badly needed to put this into writing somewhere. It's been killing me not being able to express these feelings to someone.

I have had crushes on multiple older guys but would never actually get with one. The fact that I have romantic feelings towards them tho makes me feel weird as the people who I hang around with see it as something disgusting. None of them knows I'm like this and I just feel like the odd one out.

Im tired of the silence in my room so i escape it by enjoying the silence from my backyard i spend hours their just to escape listening to that ceiling fan in my room im chopped as shit and fat and got like no friends

So I have DID (used to be called multiple personality disorder), and I had this friend. Things were going great between us — we got along really well and even liked each other. At some point, we started opening up and sharing secrets. When I told her about my condition, she didn’t judge me or push me away. She actually took the time to get to know the others, and everything seemed fine.

But then, one of them ended up telling her something real — a truth she didn’t know about. I didn’t expect it, and I don’t think she did either. Now she’s hurt, she’s been crying, and she blocked me. I’ve just been sitting with this feeling like I messed everything up. I feel like a complete screw-up today.

I have no idea why I do this. But I downloaded tinder recently as I moved to a new area and wanted to start meeting people. I’m single so open to dating as well but I realized quickly that people just use tinder to hook up, which I was not looking for. So I kinda just started going on it every few days and only swipe left. Even if I think the girl is pretty or we share interests I just swipe left. Nothing happens. They don’t know I swiped left and I havnt ended up talking to anyone on the app. That’s it, that’s my story

Ever since I moved away from my home town, my life got extremely quiet. So quiet, i fear if i disappear no one would notice for months.. I guess this is just the dark truth about adulting, no one truly cares unless it benefits them. Im 25F and just didn’t imagine my life going this way at all. It’s lonely and freeing all at the same time

I'm so good at dating, I should just start a support group for all my exes.

Soo well In mid 20s age the choas is about managing your relationship and Your priorities like family siblings study life....
So basically I love someone but I don't know how deeply I love him...I want no fear in loving someone... but in real I have like If my parents do not accept him...if my feelings have an end for him...I want to spend my time without him to see do I really love him Orr in flow of feelings I felt special for him couple of month ago....what do you think ?

I think I'm broken when it comes to romantic love. I don't feel scared of losing my partner who am in love with. It just feels like I'm a tourist in their lives who is only interested in the stories they have to tell. The scary part is I know deep down that is not how it should be. I hope to meet someone one day who can help change that.

Know that I’m not the first one to do it. was overstimulated and overwhelmed and it helped ground me a little. Went to the room for lunch and felt like I couldn’t leave. Had a dissociative episode. Checked for cameras before I did it, but god I pray that there were no cameras. If they audit me what the fuck would I say.

When I used to be in my School I used to have a crush on girl who is the cutest in the whole school i used to have huge crush on her I was average looking guy but for some reason I used to doubt that she used to have some feelings about me she always comes infront of me when I used to passby she used to smile.i never got a chance to get close with her nor got a chance to speak with her this is my biggest regret in my whole life so now after 4-5 my feelings and regret were same as back then I am having a huge trouble cannot make past correct but,still i know her house atleast randomly could speak i tried to reach her by instagram she didn't even accept my request i was angry that she doesn't even know me i this feeling so bad when you love someone so much but they don't even know me it hurts but mostly.i am not that much insecure person but i still have a belief that she would have some feelings about me so I just want to do something i know her house but it make be inappropriate as she used to be junior (I guess she may not even remember my name or face) ,not in contact,she is other college i have mutuals but i doesn't want them get involved this is my biggest confusion

I get told that I'm too cocky, too arrogant but it only gets worse as I grow business and develop. The flip to this, is that I use sarcasm, smart ass comments and everything else to hide my feelings. Feelings that are just wanting to be happy and not have to think about 10000 things everyday from sun up to sun down.

I know, it’s pathetic.

It’s like I found my voice and my strength to stand up and walk away and life just keeps throwing one thing after another with my health and its terrifying.

Haviing your own voice is fucking terrifying.

Everything feels so big and overwhelming and it’s not that I miss the violence, but i mean of course you miss someone after any breakup in someway. But right with all my health issues and trying to piece my life together- it all feels so huge-, everyone looks at me for answers about what the fuck is happening or going to happen. It just makes me really miss being small

barely a person