قريت الكلام بصوت ايلينا

So many conversations have gone in silence. So many conversations have happened in dreams.

11:11

"The night is the hardest time to be alive and 4am knows all my secrets.”

Step out of your body for a minute.
Your reflection is now just a stranger with feelings you don’t know, with a past you can not guess...and you’re starting to see that you’re just like everybody else, with flaws that most probably the others don’t even notice until you start complaining about it.
Step out of your body for a minute.
Look in the mirror and say ,,nice to meet you “, be patient and caring, learn to respect and forgive yourself and you’ll have a true friendship that will last forever.

it was such a small thing. but the more I didn’t talk about it, the more it grew inside me. now I don’t know where the roots are resting and I don’t know how to get rid of it. my anger has grown a garden around my ribs, and my tears have been silently watering the clump of soil in my heart, my veins keeping them warm.

I have to say that it was beautiful... but I couldn’t breathe. I was drowning in it, vines around my limbs and petals flowing from my lips. I felt like there was nowhere else to turn to. but what could I do? all my life, the hardest thing I’ve been trying to run away from is myself.

ولا أمان لشخصٍ تركنا مرة، فمَن قبل بفِكرة الهُجران ولو لمرة قادر علي تنفيذها ألف مرة.

i always thought, it was hard to handle the pain that others caused.
i was wrong.
no one really hurt me as much as i did to myself.

And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.