Life Mistakes I've Witnessed
Part 6: Influenced Betrayal
Here is another time where I fucked up. Another time where my poor ethics made me question myself and come out a better man. Something that I did wrong, that made me build stronger ethics.
A few years ago, my friends would often call me whenever they'd need drugs because they knew I used to have connections. Although I didn't really sell drugs at the time, I could get them pretty much anything.
One night in 2017, a friend calls me and asks if I knew anyone that would get him acid. I had started trying to get away from all of that at the time but I still had drug addicts and drug dealers as close friends.. So I told him that I wouldn't get involved this time but gave him a phone number to call.
At that moment, there was another guy with me, who would usually sell from time to time. As I hang up the phone, he turns around and says he has acid, then starts laughing.
Confused by his actions, I ask him what's going on...
He tells me to call back my friend and to tell him to come now.
The two guys didn't know each other.
I refuse at first but he keeps insisting so I call the other one back telling him my friend has LSD and he could come get some.
As we're waiting for him to come, the guy says he didn't really have LSD and was planning on scamming them.
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I don't know what went in my mind but I said nothing.
I just went along with it.
When the other one comes, he hands him two pieces of sugar, told him there was 1mg drop of LSD in each one of them when really there was nothing but sugar.
I kept silent and then just left.
I was doing my best to mind my own business and get away from all of this, although I knew what was going on was wrong.
The next morning I wake up with a dozen of calls from the guy that bought fake LSD.
I call him back many times but no answer.
It's only a couple of days later that I'll hear from some other friends that he got aggressed that night.
In fact, he tried to call back the guy and get more "LSD" since the first ones he took did no effect (no shit..)
The other one simply decided that instead of giving them sugar this time, he'll send a few guys to take everything they had.
Which they did.
Thinking back on it, I realized how poor of me it was to connect those two people.
One was naive, the other was purely evil.
Little did I think before letting them meet without me and exchanging phone numbers.
Knowing both of them, there was no way it could have ended well.
I don't talk to any of them anymore, one by choice, the other thinks I have something to do with what happened to him that night.
The thing is, I would probably think the same as he does.
Anyway, it's only then that I realized that there was nothing noble about helping people destroy themselves.
I realized no one is worthy of trust.
Not even me.
So I decided to mind my own fucking business from there on.
I decided not to put myself in situations where I didn't want to be anymore.
Part 6: Influenced Betrayal
Here is another time where I fucked up. Another time where my poor ethics made me question myself and come out a better man. Something that I did wrong, that made me build stronger ethics.
A few years ago, my friends would often call me whenever they'd need drugs because they knew I used to have connections. Although I didn't really sell drugs at the time, I could get them pretty much anything.
One night in 2017, a friend calls me and asks if I knew anyone that would get him acid. I had started trying to get away from all of that at the time but I still had drug addicts and drug dealers as close friends.. So I told him that I wouldn't get involved this time but gave him a phone number to call.
At that moment, there was another guy with me, who would usually sell from time to time. As I hang up the phone, he turns around and says he has acid, then starts laughing.
Confused by his actions, I ask him what's going on...
He tells me to call back my friend and to tell him to come now.
The two guys didn't know each other.
I refuse at first but he keeps insisting so I call the other one back telling him my friend has LSD and he could come get some.
As we're waiting for him to come, the guy says he didn't really have LSD and was planning on scamming them.
🤦♂️
I don't know what went in my mind but I said nothing.
I just went along with it.
When the other one comes, he hands him two pieces of sugar, told him there was 1mg drop of LSD in each one of them when really there was nothing but sugar.
I kept silent and then just left.
I was doing my best to mind my own business and get away from all of this, although I knew what was going on was wrong.
The next morning I wake up with a dozen of calls from the guy that bought fake LSD.
I call him back many times but no answer.
It's only a couple of days later that I'll hear from some other friends that he got aggressed that night.
In fact, he tried to call back the guy and get more "LSD" since the first ones he took did no effect (no shit..)
The other one simply decided that instead of giving them sugar this time, he'll send a few guys to take everything they had.
Which they did.
Thinking back on it, I realized how poor of me it was to connect those two people.
One was naive, the other was purely evil.
Little did I think before letting them meet without me and exchanging phone numbers.
Knowing both of them, there was no way it could have ended well.
I don't talk to any of them anymore, one by choice, the other thinks I have something to do with what happened to him that night.
The thing is, I would probably think the same as he does.
Anyway, it's only then that I realized that there was nothing noble about helping people destroy themselves.
I realized no one is worthy of trust.
Not even me.
So I decided to mind my own fucking business from there on.
I decided not to put myself in situations where I didn't want to be anymore.
Please explain to me how being constantly sad is a real thing..
I really don't get it.
Let's fix this now.
What makes you emotional is your own thoughts. It's how you react to events that happen in your life.
That's the exact point that makes you feel good or bad.
Now you're not free to choose what happens in your life for sure, but what you're free to do is think.
Again, the solution is the problem itself.
If you're free to think about whatever the fuck you want (and you totally are) then stop dwelling on what you can't control.
It's that simple.
Can fix it? Go for it.
Can't fix it? Move on to something else.
There is ABSOLUTELY no reason for ANYONE to torture themselves.
It just doesn't make sense.
Why would you do that to yourself.
Take action or ignore.
Overthinking leads nowhere.
I really don't get it.
Let's fix this now.
What makes you emotional is your own thoughts. It's how you react to events that happen in your life.
That's the exact point that makes you feel good or bad.
Now you're not free to choose what happens in your life for sure, but what you're free to do is think.
Again, the solution is the problem itself.
If you're free to think about whatever the fuck you want (and you totally are) then stop dwelling on what you can't control.
It's that simple.
Can fix it? Go for it.
Can't fix it? Move on to something else.
There is ABSOLUTELY no reason for ANYONE to torture themselves.
It just doesn't make sense.
Why would you do that to yourself.
Take action or ignore.
Overthinking leads nowhere.
If you feel like there is a void inside you, a missing piece that you can't seem to point the finger on.
Just know that it won't come from others.
It won't come from someone you meet, it won't come from a love relationship.
In fact, as long as you won't find it, your friendships and relationships will fail.
Simply because you're not at peace with who you are.
Because you're not whole.
Not because you're alone, but rather because you're not there for yourself and never got to fully know it.
There are deep feelings inside of us that we are unaware of.
We do feel them but can't know where they come from.
It's that uncertainty that creates a void inside oneself.
Questions without answer.
If only you sat down, meditated and thought deeply about what makes you who you are, you would connect with your inner self and transcend subconscious barriers.
You'd feel free.
Just know that it won't come from others.
It won't come from someone you meet, it won't come from a love relationship.
In fact, as long as you won't find it, your friendships and relationships will fail.
Simply because you're not at peace with who you are.
Because you're not whole.
Not because you're alone, but rather because you're not there for yourself and never got to fully know it.
There are deep feelings inside of us that we are unaware of.
We do feel them but can't know where they come from.
It's that uncertainty that creates a void inside oneself.
Questions without answer.
If only you sat down, meditated and thought deeply about what makes you who you are, you would connect with your inner self and transcend subconscious barriers.
You'd feel free.
Sitting in a room kills your creativity.
The physical limitations put by being trapped between four walls have a direct impact on your imaginative mind.
Can't feel inspired looking at a blank wall.
Even if it's decorated, there is no depth to it.
The physical limitations put by being trapped between four walls have a direct impact on your imaginative mind.
Can't feel inspired looking at a blank wall.
Even if it's decorated, there is no depth to it.
Most people do this mistake of trying to justify their behavior by splitting themselves into multiple entities.
"my inner child"
"my ego"
"my insecure side"
"drunk me"
All of those are nothing but fake excuses.
We say such things to feel less responsible of our actions.
Blaming it all on a third party that isn't us, assuming we dont have control over it.
It often comes out as a joke but deep down you really are giving fake excuses for your poor behavior.
It's only when you take responsibility for all that constitutes you that you start improving it.
It's so easy to blame.
It's harder to take responsibility.
Easy is rarely worth it.
"my inner child"
"my ego"
"my insecure side"
"drunk me"
All of those are nothing but fake excuses.
We say such things to feel less responsible of our actions.
Blaming it all on a third party that isn't us, assuming we dont have control over it.
It often comes out as a joke but deep down you really are giving fake excuses for your poor behavior.
It's only when you take responsibility for all that constitutes you that you start improving it.
It's so easy to blame.
It's harder to take responsibility.
Easy is rarely worth it.
Potential = Unlimited
Time = Limited
Mental Space = Very limited
It's okay to waste away opportunities for as long as you learn from the experience.
If you do, you will make sure that the time spent was invested into learning something new.
Potential and opportunities are abundant, you mental space is not.
Don't dwell on what could have been, move on.
Never focus on "what if"s.
Focus on the now, on how you manage and direct your thoughts and how you spend and invest your time.
Time = Limited
Mental Space = Very limited
It's okay to waste away opportunities for as long as you learn from the experience.
If you do, you will make sure that the time spent was invested into learning something new.
Potential and opportunities are abundant, you mental space is not.
Don't dwell on what could have been, move on.
Never focus on "what if"s.
Focus on the now, on how you manage and direct your thoughts and how you spend and invest your time.
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Announcement:
I've been less active during the past few days as I'm focusing on my next projects.
Here are a few things worth mentioning:
- Unfuckwithable: Rhetoric and Body Language course will be available in both audio and video formats. Coming on July.
-Self-sufficiency book and program will also be available in audio format soon.
-You can now get my products in Crypto (ETH only), DM me on Telegram or send me an email to founder@growtter.cc to get this done.
Wishing you a great weekend.
Will be back tomorrow with an essay on Quantum Immortality.
Much love Basedonians ❤️🖖
I've been less active during the past few days as I'm focusing on my next projects.
Here are a few things worth mentioning:
- Unfuckwithable: Rhetoric and Body Language course will be available in both audio and video formats. Coming on July.
-Self-sufficiency book and program will also be available in audio format soon.
-You can now get my products in Crypto (ETH only), DM me on Telegram or send me an email to founder@growtter.cc to get this done.
Wishing you a great weekend.
Will be back tomorrow with an essay on Quantum Immortality.
Much love Basedonians ❤️🖖
Biggest red flag in anyone is not having a vision.
If the person can't project themselves in 5 years realistically, walk away.
They'll bring unnecessary uncertainty to your life.
If the person can't project themselves in 5 years realistically, walk away.
They'll bring unnecessary uncertainty to your life.
Quantum Immortality
Disclaimer:
I don't strongly believe in this theory but I strongly recommend against trying this out. Don't be stupid.
My point being beyond the theory itself, I do however need to explain the basics of it.
Let's get started.
Let's suppose, there is an infinite number of alternate realities.
However, there is only one consciousness of yours.
What makes you, you.
Consciousness being defined as "state of being aware of and responsive to one's surroundings", it is basically the opposite of death.
As death represents the absence of consciousness, the absence of a you.
Which makes it technically impossible for consciousness to "experience" death, as in it just doesn't feel it since it doesn't exist anymore when it dies. At least not in a humanly perceptible sense.
The Quantum Immortality theory finds its core in the supposed infinity of alternate realities and the consciousness' inability to experience death.
As such, if someone was about to die, they would never really die, but their consciousness would jump to the alternate reality where they survive.
Russian Roulette experiment:
According to the Quantum Immortality, if someone was playing to the Russian roulette (click here if you don't know what that is) their consciousness would each time be in the version of reality where the gun jams and would this survive each time by jumping from one alternate reality to another without ever realizing it.
How true is this?
Not much given the huge amount of suppositions implied.
But, this perspective underlines one highly important aspect of our whole existence.
It sheds the light on the irrelevancy of the external world and the important of one's selfperceived experiences.
The point being that everything that defines life as we know it is a matter of consciousness and how far/little we are able to perceive our surrounding environment, highlighting ourselves as the focal point of existence.
Reflecting on this, is having ego.
Reflecting on our existence, valuing it and becoming aware of the highly central role we play in our own lives results in a self-painted image.
A painting in which you are both the subject and the artist.
That's how much control you have.
Disclaimer:
I don't strongly believe in this theory but I strongly recommend against trying this out. Don't be stupid.
My point being beyond the theory itself, I do however need to explain the basics of it.
Let's get started.
Let's suppose, there is an infinite number of alternate realities.
However, there is only one consciousness of yours.
What makes you, you.
Consciousness being defined as "state of being aware of and responsive to one's surroundings", it is basically the opposite of death.
As death represents the absence of consciousness, the absence of a you.
Which makes it technically impossible for consciousness to "experience" death, as in it just doesn't feel it since it doesn't exist anymore when it dies. At least not in a humanly perceptible sense.
The Quantum Immortality theory finds its core in the supposed infinity of alternate realities and the consciousness' inability to experience death.
As such, if someone was about to die, they would never really die, but their consciousness would jump to the alternate reality where they survive.
Russian Roulette experiment:
According to the Quantum Immortality, if someone was playing to the Russian roulette (click here if you don't know what that is) their consciousness would each time be in the version of reality where the gun jams and would this survive each time by jumping from one alternate reality to another without ever realizing it.
How true is this?
Not much given the huge amount of suppositions implied.
But, this perspective underlines one highly important aspect of our whole existence.
It sheds the light on the irrelevancy of the external world and the important of one's selfperceived experiences.
The point being that everything that defines life as we know it is a matter of consciousness and how far/little we are able to perceive our surrounding environment, highlighting ourselves as the focal point of existence.
Reflecting on this, is having ego.
Reflecting on our existence, valuing it and becoming aware of the highly central role we play in our own lives results in a self-painted image.
A painting in which you are both the subject and the artist.
That's how much control you have.
Notice how people who don't agree with your ideas will very often attack you as a person.
"Ad hominem" is what it's called and the trick is to not fall for it.
Afterall if that's all they could come up with, you obviously won the argument.
Leave it there.
No need to beat a dead man.
You and them both know how poor their answer is.
Don't answer back, leave them alone with their thoughts.
Maybe that'll make them a better person lmao
Or not, you shouldn't care
"Ad hominem" is what it's called and the trick is to not fall for it.
Afterall if that's all they could come up with, you obviously won the argument.
Leave it there.
No need to beat a dead man.
You and them both know how poor their answer is.
Don't answer back, leave them alone with their thoughts.
Maybe that'll make them a better person lmao
Or not, you shouldn't care
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