Momma you were right, trying to find happiness where I lost it is a foolishness.

It's clear now

I want go!

I want to run to where nothing relates to you.

I want to start a new chapter where there are faces that look nothing like you.

I want to unfold and bloom where I don't have attachments to your existence.

I want to be present in life where nothing pokes my wounds and remind me of you, of us, of how we used to be, of what we could have been.

I want to leave!

I want to move to a place where you don't exist.

I want to live where I can't breathe the same air as yours.

I want to be where I can't walk on the same ground as yours.

I want to be where you're not around.

I just lost the few healthy tendons I had.

I been hurt, didn't I tell you that before?
You turned around and did that shit and even more

لقد طفح الكيل.
لا أريد هذه الحياة بعد الآن.
خذني بعيدا من فضلك.
لا أستطيع التظاهر بأنني سعيد بعد الآن.

Once in a while I stop pretending to be the happy person everyone thinks I am.

I stop pretending to be the girl who's got sunshine and rainbow in her world and just be me - numb and slightly suicidal then everybody keeps asking "What's wrong with you today?"

I don't know how to answer that without bursting into tears so I cover it up with my "I'm okay's" and come back the next day with my filters on.

Look at me, it's happy me...

I am here until I'm not anymore.
Read that again!

አበቃ - La Fin!

Your presence in the next few seconds, minutes, hours or days isn't guaranteed!

Say it Now, whatever it is you want to say!
Do it Now, whatever it is you want to do!

Before it's too late...Please...you don't have time.

Where you focus your enery, it grows there!