1:26 been crushed, been fucked, been used, new man born from all of this. saw it coming for a long time. punishing me no more.

you would be amazed about how quickly i can disappear.

i wish i could left the human interaction behind and socialize with a cat instead.

i simply despise any humanity activities.

"to left everything behind and start over" actually i would just left. without a single trace.

it's not your fault tho, we're humans. we were designed to be like this.

for a human being, killing is the most natural thing in the world. either others or yourself. we were created for it.

in my mind, who's gonna answer my question? my biggest fear is not coming back home.

2:00 you fade away, every day, faster.

remember to die before trying to talk about how you feel to someone you shouldn't say a single word.

you may say i'm trauma dumping, but that shit really happened to me.

i never wanted from anyone to put themselves in my shoes and see how it feels to be like me bc they may not survive the first 2 hours and it's humiliating.

you don't deserve to be like me either in the good or bad way, cause you'll be the one suffering.

keep on wondering around about how things could've been better, to buy some more time to survive.

i'm not patient. if something is going to happen, let it happen. otherwise i'll go buy a gun.

جدی دیگه نمیتونم. توان و کششِ جسمی و روحی‌ام به باریک‌ترین نقطه خودش رسیده و هر آن امکان داره پاره بشه.