i can't feel sorry. sorry-ness can't describe the amount of shame that is in my chest for being the one who is still living.
in a world where that the one who is full of joy for living, gets killed and the one who yearns for death, survives.
there's nothing in it's right. but there's a lot of wrongs that shouldn't take places, but they do.
i'm afraid of the fact that i may don't have it in me anymore, not even a single drop.
Absolute Hatred
Blade and Bath
life of sadness has not been the same. what i've felt, i don't feel the same way. life of madness takes over me, blooming hatred is all i have left. life's collapsing; mine and theirs, i have hatred to myself and to them.
اگزیستانسیال
Blade and Bath – Absolute Hatred
there is no way i can escape. the wish to murder all of them, to rip off their heads, to slit their throats, to blow their brains out and to dance on their bones.
اگزیستانسیال
Blade and Bath – Absolute Hatred
i'm a worthless, useless human. so are you.
اگزیستانسیال
Blade and Bath – Absolute Hatred
3:27 years of suffering had turned into something different, stronger, more meaningful. an absolute hatred towards everything, and everyone.
looking at the sunrise, thinking about the lives that deserved to see this as well but they didn't let them.
i'm not ashamed of being alive, i'm ashamed that i wasn't the one died. there’s a vase difference between these.
in a world where only selective systems run, there’s no hope for a miracle. it's only fighting.
i'm disgusted by the same air we breathe, by the same sunlight we feel at our skin, by the same water we drink, by the same language we speak, i'm so fucking disgusted by you having everything that i have as well when you don't deserve any of it.
it's not fair. actually it was never fair.and that's why i don't belive in fate as well.
This Place Is Gonna Fall
The Cigarettes
when nothing makes sense and it feels like the end of everything you once believe in. there's a hole in your heart, and a pain in your chest, and it feels like there is nothing left. i've been there so many times i can say, it will end someday.
you gotta keep holding on till it's gone, cause this day
will come.
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