3:10 / I get bored, a wish for real one.

I just wanna spend the night not wanting to kill myself for one time.

spending my will to live on pinterest with some random spotify playlist just to not kill myself.

how much aura did I lose when I mentally broke down because of a song that I used to listen to in my lowest?

yes I'm a yaper and do yapping.
but for the voices in my head ofc.

my hairloss due to overthinking is going insane.

I hate you. I get sick from the smell of you. I hate you. I'm stopping myself from killing you. you make me sick.
I regret all of it. I hate you.
I really do. / 0:35

I hate the way you're always right, even when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. / 0:19

my eyelashes are too heavy to carry tears that cuz of hatred.

if you ever find out how much hatred I have for my life, it would be at my funeral.

"I just need to make it trough the week"
shut the fuck up you fucking liar.

I'm sorry for existing in anyone's life or memory.

for my broken lungs
I pray, from my pain. / 1:13