I think I lost something over time. I lost my body it, doesn’t feel like mine. I lost my trust in everything and everyone. they take and take, but I’m the one who’s made mistakes.

you made me want to fucking disappear. 1:34

I wish someone could fix what was broken. I wish I hadn’t been so open.

“would you die for me” i would die for anyone or anything to end it but yeah sure.

my heart has become colder than this room. long time since I felt joy or happiness. / 0:51

listening to music and staring at sunrise makes me so disappointed, like how dare you still be alive and seeing this view?

my whole life is some kind of "try not to lose your shit" YouTube video.

I'm seriously try my best to not losing my shit but I can't promise I'd win it.

sorry I didn't text back I was feeding my delusions and obsessions.

I hate being alive and I don't have the balls to actually kill myself, so I sleep. I sleep to violate my existence.

1:51 / just let me mourn this loss with you, I have already started to. life is short, it is frail, and it leaves too soon.

“life is too short”
yeah i wanna make it shorter.

“but you don’t look suicidal” my fault let me just kill myself for a moment.