sleeping hits differently when you're trying to avoid being alive.

تنها سنگرم برای نکُشتنِ خودم خوابیدنه.

misery will follow me.
empty room, empathy.
blame on me. what you will see, a bittersweet symphony.

"what's your hobbies" I create fake scenarios in my head and talk to myself every night as an escape from the reality.

yes I'm useless but don't you dare think that you stand a chance against me in hating yourself and wanting to die.

I'm getting overwhelmed and my phone getting overheated at the same time. who's the dramatic queen? stay tuned.

bruh-

این پروسه تحمل کردن و کنار اومدن خیلی سخت و طاقت‌فرساست، نمیشه به‌جاش بگیریم بخوابیم و دیگه بیدار نشیم؟

If I can't be you, I'd rather be dead. to be someone else, outside of my head. I've been waiting so long, to watch it all go. I'm bringing you down,
my alter ego. / 1:45

all i do is listen to music and pretend i'm not real.

1:01 / I have a shotgun, and a date with my lonely chair. I'm not pessimist when I said it's all over for me. I'm realistic, It's over, life shot me in the head.

It's useless to ignore this pain when loneliness reminds me of it. It's useless to extract this pain when the pain is hidden inside my brain.

whatever is next, it's better than this fucking curse.

no more days, no more months.
no more years, no more loneliness.
no more pain, no more life. / 2:37