what we lose, we can't choose. we are through. / 0:56

about to ask my thoughts if i can sleep tonight.

I need to be 13 again. I know what the fuck should I do this time. (prepared to not seeing 14)

this takes ten times more of our mental strength and it takes way less to see yourself in a cage, disintegrating. / 1:17
in a clinical way.
in a physical way.

let's fuck louder cuz the voices in my head could never do this.

sometimes I wish I could take off my skin like a t-shirt so I can feel things the way I have to.

I'm scared of being alone with myself.
I can't tell if he wants to fuck with me
or stab me 28 times with a sharp knife.

It's too quiet to hang myself.

I whisper "what the fuck" to myself like 17 times a day.

when you made it on the bridge, did you think about your life or had you already made up your mind? / 1:22