why me? why am I the only one left living? why? why? / 1:05

real footage of me when life gets a little hard:

خدایا من نمیخوام دلقک باشم میخوام جسد باشم جسد.

بخدا اگر ocd نداشتم کیرمم دست کائنات نمیدادم.

all the lilies bloomed and blossomed, wilted and they're shivering. I can't stop
their withering. / 3:13
oh, this world is a war.

1:34 / I've been far removed, watch the life pour out and only I know why. days turn to months and years. watch the fluids drain, oh I don't mind.

"don't worry, we all felt like this someday"

“what do you do for living” i do my best.

my favorite animal is me when I'm overthinking. somebody needs to
stop me with a hunting gun.

اشتباه نکن زود بزرگ نشدی، فقط زود بگا رفتی.

1:12 / midnight, I'm trying to think. I wanna leave Earth and this place. violence across the world, into my own reality. Feelin' just so lonely.