"what do you want from your life?"

today, the sun and clouds make a very beautiful view for jumping through the window.

If you know you know.

how much aura did I lost when I didn't end my life last night and seeing sunrise again?

I want to enjoy a waltz dance with death and dancing with each other until we can't stand on our legs, so we sleep in a grave for a little break.

2:13 / so I keep taking my meds and I do what my doctor says. I hate myself more everyday, I guess I'll always be this way.

I pray for death every night but I keep waking up alive.

I hate everything I am and I have my friends to thank for that.

everyday I feel that I just can't do anything right.

wtf am i paying for? being fucked by life?

destruction in my mind.
I wanna be the one,
destruction all around.
we'll never meet tonight.

didn’t kill myself today -1000 aura.

I hate my existence with normal people like can someone kill me please?

I named the voices in my head 'the gang' so we can 'gang bang' when I shoot my head with a gun.

the sexual tension between me and the voices in my head is making me insane.

I wish I could get poured on the carpet instead of being born and rotting in bed.