at first it was till 1am, then 2am, 3, 4, 5. but now, I think it will never ends till I pass out.

oh god wtf are you doing up there buddy?

I look at suicide as a chance. if I couldn't go through my shits, I'll attempt. if I could, I'll attempt AGAIN.

عزیزم منم از دست کارها و افکارم خسته‌ام و باور کن اگر این امکان وجود داشت که تا ۵ ثانیه دیگه از وجودیت نیست و محو بشم، لحظه‌ای دریغ نمی‌کردم.

bad apple, why do I feel the need to touch you when I know you are not clean? / 1:12

Socializing? oh you mean self harm and destruction and attempting suicide? Yes.

متفاوت بودن تا جایی جذابه که کنار آدم‌های عادی زندگی نکنی.

به سندرمِ "دوباره خوندن کتاب‌هایی که باعث میشه از زندگی سیر بشم و برم سمت پنجره" دچار شدم.

my parents didn't raise a good child, actually they didn't raise me at all.

and I heard it in the wind,
and I saw it in the sky, / 2:07
and I thought it was the end.
I thought it was the 4th of July.

you're a 4th of July by Sufjan Stevens person and I'm a 4th of July by Soundgarden person. we are not the same.

it doesn't matter if it's 4th of July or 3rd of December, I wanna die in any time line possible.

I was always wishing to be special,
but for now I'm just different.

Being somebody is just something to be. / 0:39