Many of us are going through our own trials, tribulations, and spiritual tests in this time. 
There seems to be something weighing you down. 
You could give up under the pressure and relent, but to do so would be such a waste of the price you've paid already. 
The enemy is screeching loudly, yet God's voice seems to have muted. 
Perhaps this is the case because God wants you to find Him in the silence. When you calm your heart down and cast your cares on Him, you find that He's there in the peace that passes understanding. 
My encouragement to you is not to give up your faith after having come so far. 
Hold onto that which God last clearly showed you and rest knowing that He's not going to abandon you in the seeming chaos. 
The Goliath in your life seems to be taunting louder and louder, but this does not mean he is winning. 
Sometimes there is strength in laying down your will to God in the battle and finding that peace and rest in God is not weak but the bravest, most formidable action you can take. The meek will inherit the earth. It's alright to trust God and rest when the enemy surrounds you. It's not just okay. It's exactly what they don't want you to do. They don't want you to become the unshakable lighthouse you were destined to become. 

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