I might get older and fader, but this tiny hand always reaches out to me, always sees the need to hold her daddy's finger knowing he won't let go of her. My sweetest angel on earth.

ㅤㅤ𝘏𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴, 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦.
ㅤㅤ𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥
ㅤㅤ𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦
ㅤㅤ𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘸𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦
ㅤㅤ𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘫𝘰𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ. . . ⸙

A letter to Maeva's sweet daddy, the loving husband of my own, Rudolph Jethro Rogers, on his special day.

There are so many things I want to be grateful for in my life, and one of it is meeting you. Watching you become the incredible man you are fills me with deep admiration and gratitude. Despite the major obstacles that have hindered our journey when we were nearly ruined and almost gave up, I know that we also have more than one significant reason to dispel any doubts in our hearts. I understand it's a lot to feel, to wonder about, and to cry over, but I hope you to know that it's also a lot to be thankful for. Because we have endured it all, and through everything, we have reached a place we could hardly have imagined. From being strangers to becoming lovers, we have loved each other for better and for worse, and we have growing closer and learning about each other with a depth of love and tenderness we had never known before. From having zero memories together to can't stop creating countless ones, from someone I once barely knew to, now, you're someone I know better than anyone else ever could.

And now, now I have witnessing you become the father of the precious angel I gave birth to. From only imagining this before to having it become a beautiful reality. Because I remember all the small talks when you show me how passionate you are about the family we can have and build. And I know how we only dared to imagine it rather than making it true. I know how long it takes to finally take the biggest step in our life. And I also know that we will never regret this beautiful decision we have ever made. And I, I never regret to have all of it with me. Even though it takes pain and tears, I will still endure it, as long as I got you here. Because to be in love with you and to be so loved by you has been the greatest blessings of my life. And if ever you hate me, then hate me as much as you want. Until then, I will let words and tears take my soul for how much I have prayed to make you love me back again.

When you show a person your genuine feeling, you are making them see the world a better place as how it appears in their eyes even though in reality, it's so much uglier than that. It's the power of kindness, and what you give away to them is hope. You give me hope, Marybeth. The love you pour in all I do is the most powerful thing I ever knew. You give me strength, confidence, and comfort, you are exactly where I go to seek the feeling of being appreciated. Your gentle smile in the morning is what pushes me forward to keep going. Through every shared laughter, sweet kisses, and face that got softened, I hope you know that's how safe you make me feel. Thank you for always nourishing us with the most careful love a husband and a daughter could ever ask for. Your existence has touched my heart in ways I will never forget.

I want her. God, I need her.

Celebrating 29th month with my beautiful baby Mary. Despite our flaws, I'm still grateful for many things that I have with her, and Maeva is the perfect representation of our sweetest blessing we have been gifted from heaven. The longer I'm with her, the more I could discover ways to be happy. It's because she's the one who could show me how to do that.

My love, you have grown a small garden in my mind that I don't want to escape anymore. The place that once was a mess now has become somewhere peaceful and beautifully arranged with the flowers you picked from wonderful place. Thank you for taking care of me so well. I love you.

🖤