but don't get me wrong i don't regret any of it. i do deserve all the 12hr sleep i took, all the days that i was doing nothing except eating , i DO deserve them. i don't regret any of it. i NEED, not WANT a break. my mind ,my soul ,my vision ,my physical , my spiritual self was drained ,exhausted and literally out of function.i needed to heal , i needed to reset and rest.This semester had ended and all the suffering too.


it was the most difficult year i have ever had and i am not gonna lie and say i handled it the way it needed to be handled.And even after the exams were over ,seeing the results were the actual disaster. I HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS KIND OF RESULT SINCE THE WORLD STARTED ITS EXISTENCE.


when you grow up achieving the impossible, when you rarely had "difficult"exam ,always having the best result of the class even though the exam was difficult , when all you had known was having good results ,A's and when your mind has been accustomed to achieve the best , it was hard . i didn't know how to handle it.i was bombarded by disappointments.All the self-doubt that always lurked behind my my mind, resurfaced . i automatically thought "See, i was right.this is exactly what i am capable of. This is the reality i have been trying to avoid my entire life but now i need to accept the facts. I am nothing but a disappointment and mediocre." all the exams i thought i did good , i was like JEez what the hell happened. especially i do remember that tuesday , i felt physical pain in my head, i felt when my heart broke. (have you ever felt a physical pain in your heart? i did felt that before but this was the first time related to grades 🤣) like "Is this the result that i sacrificed a lot?" , 'Is this the result that i had plenty of sleepless nights?" , "Is this why i studied?". i was sure i would have scored better if i didn't study at all. i was at a point that i started to question why i am doing all this , what is the point. i was on the verge of breaking.


and the most difficult question and the question that i still don't answer was "WHOSE FAULT IS THIS?". i tried to blame my self, the teachers, the administrators and all. but it didn't sit well in me. all parties have their wrong doing. but at this point, who cares. you don't need all questions to be answered in order to proceed to live your life and that is exactly what i did. and i have never been glad.❤️

“Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans”

- John Lennon


@Born_Crucified

Happy Valentine's day for me,cheers 🥂

Attention isn't intention

I cannot help laugh when i think of yesterday 😂😂

Have u ever like feel the universe is deliberately making EVERY SINGLE THING against you? Like every possible curve u take there is something waiting for u there?

That's is exactly how i feel now.

And as insane i am , i am testing universe's patience by taking everything just by saying "oh,impressive " & "fantastic " and ignore it. WE WILL see how far we r going this way

This and rain❤️

I will be this way forever i guess

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¹⁸ እኔ ግን በእግዚአብሔር ደስ ይለኛል፤ በመድኃኒቴ አምላክ ሐሤት አደርጋለሁ።
¹⁹ ጌታ እግዚአብሔር ኃይሌ ነው፤ እግሮቼን እንደ ዋላ እግሮች ያደርጋል፤ በከፍታዎችም ላይ ያስሄደኛል።
#Bible

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Make me sleep

Twinkle twinkle little star✨






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Good night❤️